Firstly, thank you for responding with such levels of kindness and understanding. It's something I've come to respect, appreciate and admire about you
.We certainly would never say anything about someone we didn't feel or think. I totally understand about how you feel regards positive comments. Sometimes when people feel they don't deserve any, or start to believe they're not worth any, they really do take them badly sometimes it's no doubt, because they don't want people telling tme what feels like lies or something they haven't earned, or don't deserve.
It is a truly amazing achievement, that for someone of your age, you have as stated survived suicides, cutting and been able to find the sheer heart, courage and emotional fortitude to be able to talk to us about it. You really, really can be so proud of being able to be here now, posting these things.
You speak so eloquently from the heart and you're a very intelligent writer and very emotionally expressive. I couldn't be crass enough, as to claim I know what the heartaches and tribulations you have lived through feel like, because I've never lived them, nor known anyone that has.
So I can only imagine how your life has progressed, but I can empathise with you, because you make difficult things easy to understnad, by expressing them beautifully and I htink the time is coming, when your life can finally start to feel, like the life of what you would consider a normal person, because your attitude and behaviour shows the qualities of a Lady and shows very rational responses and high levels of social awareness.
So I think the next phase of your life will be a lot more rewarding, enriching and something that you can continue to be proud of.
You're half age, but I am in no doubt whatsoever, that by the time you're age, you will be a more fully rounded, more 3-dimensional, more accomplished person, mentally, emotionally and physically.
Your words, responses and warm, expressive people skills do you so much credit and show me that there is a brighter future for a young "Lady", that I think has truly earned that life and certainly i this site and this community can continue to show you the same respect, belief, honesty and acceptance, you have shown us, you can certainly continue to help you make more positive strides forward in your life.
Just keep believing in yourself, be understanding with yourself and learn from mistakes and keep remembering you're human and that's okay. You'll doubt, question and criticse yourself sometiems, but when you ask the question "am I worth the time and effort I give myself", the answer should always be a resounding YES every time.
You're worth the time and effort and you are a million miles away from being worthless. You have proven through your words, what value and worth you have and it's a lot, it really is. I've come across people that have less than a tenth of the qualities you have. People that are horrible, cold, liers, decievers and basically loathsome and despisable people, in real life and portrayed through the media, so I know the difference between that sort of person and the person you are.
I can say, that as a community, we will look out for you and try to give you as much support as we can, for as long as you'll let us. We ARE here for you and we DO care
.You're someone who has a really, really bright future ahead of yourself and you are a really intelligent, human and inspiring young Lady, who has overcome some very difficult problems and never become nasty, bitter or resentful about how life seemingly kicked you down to the ground a lot, you've just come through it with some strength, courage and heart and a lot of warmth and emotion to give.
So YES!!!! I AM VERY, VERY PROUD OF YOU and I think you're an absolutely fantastic person and I am going to say something you may never have heard or read before, but you ARE a rolemodel. You've shown people what can be done when life looks bleak, when everything seems lost. You've shown people how to live again and live with a lot of positivity to others of that personality type.
So I completely understand you're not used to, or feel perculiar about positive comments to you, but trust me, they will happen more in the future, because I know you WILL deserve them.
We are right behind you and I'm wishing you a lot of GOOD LUCK and best wishes for the future.
This is the start of your new life, this is where finally you find a lot of the happiness life stole from you. Granted it will be hard, but I'm 10,000% confident you CAN and WILL be strong and capable enough, to change your life even more positively than you already have.
WELL DONE again, for getting this far in life and being you. It's a very tough but also inspiring story and maybe many years from now, you may one day find a way to make a book out of it, to help and inspire others that may become like you were.
Not trying to freak you out or anything like that, but with your expressive writing skills and intellect, it could be a thought for the future at some point
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