so little, but so excited!

[meaok77]

I lost 3 pounds since I started July 27!

It may be a small amount, but I'm so happy to NOT see that awful starting weight number anymore! It gave me a "high" that made me so happy and more will-power. So much, that I spent an hour last night strength training upper body with weights and resistance tube. Every time I wanted to quit doing it and just watch tv, I thought "3 pounds lost...could be 3 or more next month". That kept me going.

[Boss Man]

Well done. You're attitude is spot and and that's why you WILL succeed .

[aspen.eli]

AWESOME..............KEEP on track with UR GOALS.....SmileS........

[meaok77]

Thanks everyone!

[duilya]

That is so fantastic!! I just started routine and can't wait to also see the numbers go down!!

Congratulations, keep those lower numbers coming!!

[meaok77]

Thank you, duilya.

Congrats on getting started and good luck! Keep us informed on your weight loss.

[duilya]

How have you been doing? Numbers still going down? You're so positive, I'm sure you're doing fantastic!!

I'm three weeks in and 4lbs down - woohoo 30lbs to go

[meaok77]

Ugh...I got hit with a really nasty cold (it could've been a mild flu...IDK, but it was bad) that lasted a week! The whole family got it starting with boyfriend, then our daughter then me. They recovered within 2 days, but I got hit really bad ( doctor says that is due to bloodtype).

Today is the first day I feel really good, so I'm going to start back into it when daughter takes her afternoon nap today. I tried to start it back up the other day and was coughing and weezing to the point I almost got sick, so I knew I wasn't physically ready to start it back up.

I'm going to start with Jillian Michaels Kettlebell routine they have on ONDEMAND (if I stay with routine, today is a strength training day). I don't have a kettlebell but she has a girl in the background that shows you how to do the routine using a dumbbell. So I'll be back at it today.

So because I had been sick the numbers haven't gone down, but the good news is they haven't gone up either.

Edit: Congrats on the 4Ib loss! That's great! I'm with ya, I got 70 pounds left to go, but I don't know if I'll be able to get to 130Ibs. Even when I was at smallest (size 6 pants) I wasn't anywhere near 130 Ibs...

[duilya]

That's terrible to hear that you've been so sick. It does make it very hard to keep on any kind of workout schedule when you can't breathe.

Glad to hear you're feeling better though. Sounds as if we're about the same weight now. I'm sitting at 201. From your pic it doesn't look like you could be anywhere close to that. I could never be 130lb. I'm only shooting for 165 give or take. At that weight I'm in a 6/7/8. I don't even really care what the scale says I just want to get back down into the size 8!!

Doing it right though so it will take time. But that's ok because I'd rather be healthy and thinner even though it takes longer.

Good luck getting back into the groove. I hope you continue to feel better

[meaok77]

That's what I've always said too. That's the way I used to be. I have a scale but I only check weight once a month (just to keep track) and I hide the scale under bed so that I won't see it out in the open, and make myself crazy and weigh myself every day or every week. I am currently 201, and no (lol)... profile pic is from 4 years ago when I was about 160 (pre-pregnancy/pre-baby-weight). I am taking pics of myself every month, they are on profile but they are currently private (not sure I'm ready to show them yet...actually I don't want to show them until you can see the difference in each pic). I started taking pics because even though the scale said 201 ( 3 pound loss), everyone said I didn't look like I could weigh that much. bf's sister said she could see a significant difference, so I took a pic and really was shocked to see a difference from the first day to the 1 month mark.

I hear ya about the size 8 pants! I have pre-pregnancy pants sitting and waiting for me. bf's other sister also gave me a bunch of jeans that are too small for me right now, but I'm using them as "goal" pants right now. Those, favorite pre-pregnancy jeans, and Calvin Klein pants are motivation. lol If the pants don't work for motivation, I watch this woman's video she made on YouTube for motivation.

[Boss Man]

It's obviously been tough to keep going when you've been feeling so crummy, but the fact you've gotten straight back to it, shows what heart and character you have and what you're willing to prove to your daughter about looking after themselves and improving a persons human value and worth.

You're doing a really great job, so be proud of yourself and keep going yeah .

[meaok77]

Awww, thanks bossman!

[duilya]

Boss is the best Where would we be without his sweet support!

workout buddy has family in town for a few days so yesterday was first day by myself. I was determined not to "take the day off" because I had nobody to push me into the workout room But I did it, all by myself. Decided on cardio with new reformer. I felt it didn't last long enough (only about 10 min) so I just kept repeating the video until I hit 30 min. I'm finally getting to the point where I'm enjoying it and not feeling right if I don't workout in some way. It's hard not to do too much as I know that's not good this early.

I know what you mean about not being ready to publish pics yet. current profile pic is current but the other one is from 4 yrs ago just like yours But even at that, in that pick I'm 180 lbs. Also just like you, nobody believes I'm over 200 lbs. That just means I"m a master at covering it up. I see it in the mirror, that's what counts. It's incentive to want to reduce it. We have to please ourselves, not others. I want to be comfortable with myself before I care how others view me.

I did mess up and eat a ding dong. Bad ding dongs

[duilya]

I love to see people that are overweight/out of shape working out. What a fantastic thing for them to be working on bettering themselves and becoming more healthy!! I know that I do not judge others on their appearance or by their body. But I do judge myself. Unfortunately when you go to the gym you don't see others that you feel are in your same position in getting in shape. You see all these thin, toned people all around then look down at the abs that used to be and get discouraged.

I do care what others think of appearance. To me it's like wearing wrinkled cloths or not bathing. If you feel unclean that's how you're going to be viewed. If you feel more healthy, you'll present the confidence. I'm not vein or want for people to give me positive judgement. It's the insecurity in myself that wants to feel better which is directly related to how I feel that I appear. Does that make sense? I don't really know if I"m explaining that right. We all want to look good and feel good.

I totally relate with her not wanting to post the pics of her progress. I don't want to look at own, so I never did take the pics that would help give me motivation to keep at it. I am using self image to keep me on track. The better that I feel I look, the more confidence I will have and so on. The people here are so wonderful about being the support to keep a solid peace of mind needed to keep going back and working hard.

You guys are so great!!!

[Boss Man]

I think I understand what you're saying. You're saying if you feel unclean, you feel like you'll be judged that way. If you feel lacking in confidence, you think people will judge you that way.

Let's face it, someone who is confident isn't very likely to think people will view them as self gratifying, or smug, or up themselves and start becoming paranoid and introverted. Confidence breeds positivity in yourself most often, not false securities that come back to bite you on the .

It isn't about necessarily seeking or wanting approval for how you look, or the positive and sensible ways you try to live, merely the lack of criticism, or feeling like you've earned the right, not to be judged or harangued for your way(s) of living.

The thing is though, in your case, it's about learning not to care. You're not doing bad things or living in a terrible way, or a way that negatively affects others, you're living in a way that's beneficial for you and as you have admitted, impacts wonderfully well on your daughter, os you shouldn't have to feel judged.

Sometimes people judge through inferiority. They see something in you they envy or are jealous of and rather than respect it, they negatively judge it. It is a failing, but in their eyes, they aren't in the wrong, you are, for being something they're not.

It's like kids vanadalising expensive cars, because they envy what they haven't got in their life, so the person who does, must be punished in some way.

You just need to learn not to care. They judge positive people because they're weak. That makes you slightly superior to them, so feel proud of it .