Yeah i was mainly asking because ive been reading off health benefits, particularly for runners that have ice baths after workouts to help prevent injury so was wondering if it was a good idea. To make it more bear-able, i would have a warmish shower/bath to start with, and then slowly add cold water, as i find it's easier to do it this way rather than to jump into a cold bath/shower. I like the way showers are quick and easy so like yesterday evening it was ideal, but i prefer to stay in a bath to make it feel more effective as im constantly in water, rather than changing the hose to each leg.
Ok, just thought id update situation as i have gone to see the physio. I was in there around 20mins.
She gave me an exercise similar to what i were already doing to help strengthen neck, she asked if i had any blood tests, which ive had many in the past, not sure whether related to this problem or not, but then i brought up that there was an x-ray of neck and that it was certified ok. She then said that the bone and all in neck was fine and that she feels it's more muscular, so gave me an exercise where i lay on front, resting on elbows, and raise neck up, tucking chin in, hold for 5 secs, repeat 10 times.
We then moved onto knees and this is where it may get complicated.
She felt knees again and said that the part which was hurting me was hamstring tendon connected to the knee. She said that both tendons were incredibly tight, especially the right one as i couldn't fully extend knee. She has given me a few stretches to work with, and advised to do them 10 times, twice a day, and to originally see me again in 3 weeks, which you know, is almost a month again, i would like to get on with life without seeing rude or insulting and be able to do what i like again.
I also don't understand how the hamstring tendon can be so tight when hamstrings are pretty flexibile, i.e i can touch hands on the floor and all, so this doesn't quite add up to me.
Thankfully, i already have an appointment for next monday which i said to her about, so she said to leave booking another appointment for now and to see her again in 4 days, she said to really try and stretch a lot because i now have shorter time, so im going to stretch the out of legs, but then i feel if the pain doesn't go away, she is simply going to say, how many times did you stretch, i'll say an x amount of times and she'll say, you've overstretched, or something like that and to stretch again for 3 weeks.
Im not doubting her knowledge or anything like that and she is a really nice lady, but i sometimes get the impression that she just wants to get the sessions over with, can't blame her, i mean what makes me a priority to anyone else, she did however say when i booked an appointment for 3 weeks, if there's any problem then to phone up, perhaps i should be more firm and forceful, what do you think? If i were in work, i couldn't work, and this has gone up for ages already, i don't want to but in and say stuff which is going to make me come across as a know-it all, or seem like im telling her how to do her job, but i just want to solve this as quick as possible as i feel it is really starting to dragg and take it's toll on me.
I also mentioned at the end when she said is there any questions about shoulders, i simply put that incase it's related i would like to bring it up, and i said about if i do skipping that after just a couple of minutes i can't simply do anymore, and she said not to worry about it for now and focus on the stretching, she said that i may be tense when skipping and if knees can't fully straighten it's not a good idea to be doing skipping or running as i may be doing them incorrectly which may then lead to the tendon being shortened.
This is what i don't understand, today right knee has been hurting like mad and i have been limping, however, i notice when i go for runs, that knee feels better afterwards, so even if form is slightly off, surely if the exercise makes me feel better, that's a plus, i know im seeing her in 4 days so maybe i should just stretch and nothing else, but i can't help but thinking that exercising can't be bad in some forms.
That being said there's a free week pass at a gym starting from today that i can go to with brothers, so i may just go there and get some use for body, of course if there's pain i'll stop, but at least i can exercise a bit there, and of course i'll have to stretch quite regularly,
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Been looking into problems, and i could possibly have these 2 problems on this page?:
http://www.exrx.net/Kinesiology/Posture.html" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
Winged Scapula, i.e flaring shoulder blades, combined with, Protracted Shoulder Girdle ?
I'll try the corrective stretches they suggest, although the doorway chest stretch ive never really been keen on as i don't find it works for me, but i'll try the others nonetheless to see if there's any improvement as i have to be doing daily stretches at the moment anyways.
This isn't going to work, this stretch doesn't feel right either :
http://www.exrx.net/Stretches/LatissimusDorsi/Wall.html" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
I hope i can bring up the shoulder problem next session, provided these current problems aren't so bad, and making progress, also want to try out either kick boxing or a form of MMA, perhaps jujitsu, can't even do daily activities like using a hammer as earlier right shoulder was hurting, around the front deltoid and on the top, used a different grip for OHP yestyerday and didn't see any pain during it.
http://www.exrx.net/Kinesiology/Posture.html" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
Winged Scapula, i.e flaring shoulder blades, combined with, Protracted Shoulder Girdle ?
I'll try the corrective stretches they suggest, although the doorway chest stretch ive never really been keen on as i don't find it works for me, but i'll try the others nonetheless to see if there's any improvement as i have to be doing daily stretches at the moment anyways.
This isn't going to work, this stretch doesn't feel right either :
http://www.exrx.net/Stretches/LatissimusDorsi/Wall.html" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false;
I hope i can bring up the shoulder problem next session, provided these current problems aren't so bad, and making progress, also want to try out either kick boxing or a form of MMA, perhaps jujitsu, can't even do daily activities like using a hammer as earlier right shoulder was hurting, around the front deltoid and on the top, used a different grip for OHP yestyerday and didn't see any pain during it.
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Touching the floor with your Hands would be related to back and Hip mobility more so than Knee mobility. So the fact the Hamstring tendon might be tight, wouldn't necessarily hinder the movement you mentioned and In this instance it would seem not.
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Oh right, it just seems that whenever i do hamstring stretches, i used to be pretty flexibile, still am, but it seems the tendon is really tight and is forcing knee, right much worse than left, to straighten, and it's causing pain, it is incredibly painful to try and straighten right knee fully, i just want to scream at times, what i did was when i was in the shower tried to stretch it fully, as the heat helped ease the pain but it's still painful, all ive bene doing is a lot of stretches that have been recommended so hope to hear something different when i go again on monday.Boss Man wrote:Touching the floor with your Hands would be related to back and Hip mobility more so than Knee mobility. So the fact the Hamstring tendon might be tight, wouldn't necessarily hinder the movement you mentioned and In this instance it would seem not.
Also, i think i may worry too much, but the biggest worry of course is to do with arthritis as im aware it can't be cured, ive had this pain come up occasionaly before, but playing tennis yesterday for just over an hour, right side of hip was hurting, i think it's the greater trochanter, the part right on the side of hip, feels as though it's rubbing against leg, it could be inflammed for some reason, but of course im just overly concerned not to get any form of arthritis or injuries like that. Going to play tennis again soon, as i noticed the pain yesterday before playing but it hurt afterwards, yet during play i didn't notice it, i will wear some better shoes today to see if that helps, but again we're only playing for not long periods, not like 8 hours or anything like that, more like 1-2.
Really do have an ancient body lol
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I mean if you can still touch the floor, then the Hamstring issue isn't affecting your ability to do it.
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Oh right, i was always under the impression that, that was related to hamstring flexibility, similar to when say doing bent over rows, and needing to bend down, and even support the weight, i could feel it in hamstrings.
Been doing the stretches often like the physio said, back there tomorrow morning, hoping for some more help rather than keep stretching as i haven't really seen any significant improvements as yet, if she suggests another 3 weeks of stretching or so, is there anything i can do to kind of put footdown and be more firm, it's really frustrating having to wait yet another month just to see how the stretches have been going, when ive been doing them for a while now as it is, and still no real improvement, i don't want to come across as rude, but i think i need to be a bit more firm and forceful towards her.
Also after today would of been 4 days i haven't been doing daily pull ups, so will try to resume that from tomorrow.
Been doing the stretches often like the physio said, back there tomorrow morning, hoping for some more help rather than keep stretching as i haven't really seen any significant improvements as yet, if she suggests another 3 weeks of stretching or so, is there anything i can do to kind of put footdown and be more firm, it's really frustrating having to wait yet another month just to see how the stretches have been going, when ive been doing them for a while now as it is, and still no real improvement, i don't want to come across as rude, but i think i need to be a bit more firm and forceful towards her.
Also after today would of been 4 days i haven't been doing daily pull ups, so will try to resume that from tomorrow.
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Time for an update after a physiotherapy appointment.
low back pain (well pelvis and feels more tailbone), has been improved significantly, from breathing through abs, it's a lot better than before, from having pain there everyday, i get it occasionally, perhaps once every 4 days or so. Guess i just need to keep trying to breathe through abs and having a pillow on chair has helped removed some of the pain.
neck is getting there, still weak, i guess from some form of forward head posture, doing exercises like so:
Lie on , on forearms, relax neck, and then push it backwards and try to tuck chin at same time, hold for 5 seconds, repeat 10 times, Ive also been experimenting with own such as laying on front hands behind back, and lifting shoulders and neck up as far as i can, sort of like an upper back extension, hoping neck will improve shortly.
Knees
Today was really painful, i had to lie on a bed, with knee resting on the end of the bed, so that whole lower leg was floating in the air, then the physio would push down on leg whilst i had to force knee to bend up backwards (sort of like a hamstring curl), towards the end it felt as though tendon was going to snap the pain was really bad, but after 10mins or so it was done, and id rather put myself through that everyday for it to improve, unfortunately, i can't, but i will stretch as she has advised, as often as possible, as when i did a stretch to target the area afterwards:
The stretch felt as though it was a pure tendon stretch, so im going to be doing a lot of these within the next couple of weeks, along with other stretches such as forcing knee up backwards when lying on a bench (similar to a hamstring curl), along with when standing, so in line or waiting, to push knee backwards so that it straightens.
I asked her about why i might of been getting this problem, and she said overtime it has gotten worse, due to im walking around with knee slightly bent, and it has caused the hamstring tendon to get extremely tight, so where it's more comfortable to walk around pain free at the time, now im feeling it as the tendon is real tight, although she said after todays session it felt a lot looser.
Shoulders
This is mainly what i wanted to talk about, it seems every attempt i try to bring this up, she doesn't want to know, which is understandable, it's not a problem i got referred for, and she already has alot on her plate at the moment. However, last session i brought up about how shoulders were so tired and achey during skipping, today i said that when i try to do daily activities like use a hammer they get tired so easily, and she said it could be related to posture, like neck, she said am i a tense person, which i guess i might be if abs were so tense for a long time, so then she explained that if shoulders and upper back are constantly tensed then they're working all day therefore when i go to use them they'll get tired quickly. And she pretty much said to try and relax them a lot more and not tense - easier said then done?
So no real word on this matter, and it doesn't feel like muscle fatigue, but more boney/joint pain on the tops and front of shoulder, really clueless on this matter, and ive tried researching but can't find anything on it, what are best options?
Thanks, i know im a bit of a nuisance, but BM, you stuck with me through the start of these problems and gave me advise, so the least i can do is to let you know how it's all going, thank you.
low back pain (well pelvis and feels more tailbone), has been improved significantly, from breathing through abs, it's a lot better than before, from having pain there everyday, i get it occasionally, perhaps once every 4 days or so. Guess i just need to keep trying to breathe through abs and having a pillow on chair has helped removed some of the pain.
neck is getting there, still weak, i guess from some form of forward head posture, doing exercises like so:
Lie on , on forearms, relax neck, and then push it backwards and try to tuck chin at same time, hold for 5 seconds, repeat 10 times, Ive also been experimenting with own such as laying on front hands behind back, and lifting shoulders and neck up as far as i can, sort of like an upper back extension, hoping neck will improve shortly.
Knees
Today was really painful, i had to lie on a bed, with knee resting on the end of the bed, so that whole lower leg was floating in the air, then the physio would push down on leg whilst i had to force knee to bend up backwards (sort of like a hamstring curl), towards the end it felt as though tendon was going to snap the pain was really bad, but after 10mins or so it was done, and id rather put myself through that everyday for it to improve, unfortunately, i can't, but i will stretch as she has advised, as often as possible, as when i did a stretch to target the area afterwards:
The stretch felt as though it was a pure tendon stretch, so im going to be doing a lot of these within the next couple of weeks, along with other stretches such as forcing knee up backwards when lying on a bench (similar to a hamstring curl), along with when standing, so in line or waiting, to push knee backwards so that it straightens.
I asked her about why i might of been getting this problem, and she said overtime it has gotten worse, due to im walking around with knee slightly bent, and it has caused the hamstring tendon to get extremely tight, so where it's more comfortable to walk around pain free at the time, now im feeling it as the tendon is real tight, although she said after todays session it felt a lot looser.
Shoulders
This is mainly what i wanted to talk about, it seems every attempt i try to bring this up, she doesn't want to know, which is understandable, it's not a problem i got referred for, and she already has alot on her plate at the moment. However, last session i brought up about how shoulders were so tired and achey during skipping, today i said that when i try to do daily activities like use a hammer they get tired so easily, and she said it could be related to posture, like neck, she said am i a tense person, which i guess i might be if abs were so tense for a long time, so then she explained that if shoulders and upper back are constantly tensed then they're working all day therefore when i go to use them they'll get tired quickly. And she pretty much said to try and relax them a lot more and not tense - easier said then done?
So no real word on this matter, and it doesn't feel like muscle fatigue, but more boney/joint pain on the tops and front of shoulder, really clueless on this matter, and ive tried researching but can't find anything on it, what are best options?
Thanks, i know im a bit of a nuisance, but BM, you stuck with me through the start of these problems and gave me advise, so the least i can do is to let you know how it's all going, thank you.
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Hey sorry for the late reply, i completely missed this post and only just discovered it by going back a few pages to see what Boss Man had said in a previous post.musculargirl wrote:Martin-Boy2 wrote:Can you say a bum?
You will figure it out. It's really really hard to decide on stuff like that. I don't know much about University and schooling in the UK though so I'm not much help in that sense on what you should do.
Personally i think people should wait to go to college or decide on a profession anyways. Not a lot of people know for sure what it is that they want to do at your age.
All i know is only you can make the decision and know what is best for you!
Just so you know too, there isin't a deadline on figuring out your profession. And it is not only okay but normal to change your mind. Many people switch careers over time. Good Luck! No worries!
Thanks for your kind words, appreciate it
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Today has been good-exercise wise:
Morning:
2 Hours Tennis
17 GTG Pull ups
Afternoon, gym:
10mins rowing to warm up
Tested out Pendlay Rows (BOR's 5RM strength), got up to 70kgx5, although they were a struggle so i may of been better off with 60's. But still, im pleased with that, as ive never really done any BOR's before properly.
Overhead Press 30kg - 3x10 - Really pushed it with these, got there though, some elbow discomfort, and now that im indoors, can feel collarbone feels a lil raised - to do with the shoulder problem i have i think.
Calf Raise machine - 1? 4x12 - If the weight was 1kg, then it's a lol, because indoors i have used heavier, lever mechanics i guess, although the calf raise machine and the unorthodox squat rack are the best aspects of that gym IMO, 7 day pass is over tomorrow.
18KG X2 DB shrugs, 3x12
Good.
The shoulder problem, i think could be hugely related, to waking up with really stiff shoulders, if i sit up after waking up, shoulders are already forced forward, so kinda rounded/hunched, and they feel stiff for a couple of hours, could this be the issue?
Morning:
2 Hours Tennis
17 GTG Pull ups
Afternoon, gym:
10mins rowing to warm up
Tested out Pendlay Rows (BOR's 5RM strength), got up to 70kgx5, although they were a struggle so i may of been better off with 60's. But still, im pleased with that, as ive never really done any BOR's before properly.
Overhead Press 30kg - 3x10 - Really pushed it with these, got there though, some elbow discomfort, and now that im indoors, can feel collarbone feels a lil raised - to do with the shoulder problem i have i think.
Calf Raise machine - 1? 4x12 - If the weight was 1kg, then it's a lol, because indoors i have used heavier, lever mechanics i guess, although the calf raise machine and the unorthodox squat rack are the best aspects of that gym IMO, 7 day pass is over tomorrow.
18KG X2 DB shrugs, 3x12
Good.
The shoulder problem, i think could be hugely related, to waking up with really stiff shoulders, if i sit up after waking up, shoulders are already forced forward, so kinda rounded/hunched, and they feel stiff for a couple of hours, could this be the issue?
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Thinking of getting a pair of running shoes, isn't there a test you can do to determine which shoe you need for running? I don't know of any around here but im sure i read somewhere that there's a test you can do, anyway, im not a hardcore runner, but i definitely want to get better at it in the near future, i don't feel these old pair of running shoes i found around the house are going to cut it long term, but im reallly clueless on which shoe i'll need.
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Just been for a run, was a bit sketchy about going as ankles have been aching a bit as of late, even with just 1-2 hour tennis sessions, perhaps it's also to do with them compensating for knees, anyway, last time i managed around:
2.64 miles in 23minutes, today i went to do the same, only to find the area i was planning to run at was being taken up by football matches, just luck!
Anyway i went on a different route, and although 2mins longer, i think i made great time, considering current state and position, here's how it went:
3.08 Miles in 25minutes = 7.4mph, = 8:06 mins per mile, and around 384 calories.
I feel great because of that, i know it's nothing fantastic, but i felt i did very well if i do say so myself. On the last lap, i seemed to land akwardly on left knee on one path of the grass which was uneven, it felt wierd and almost as though something had been compressed, i managed to finish though as i wasn't far from the end and there wasn't any major pain finishing off, so im hoping it's nothing to serious!!
God i am sweattting, was thankful of a shower mid way through the run though
2.64 miles in 23minutes, today i went to do the same, only to find the area i was planning to run at was being taken up by football matches, just luck!
Anyway i went on a different route, and although 2mins longer, i think i made great time, considering current state and position, here's how it went:
3.08 Miles in 25minutes = 7.4mph, = 8:06 mins per mile, and around 384 calories.
I feel great because of that, i know it's nothing fantastic, but i felt i did very well if i do say so myself. On the last lap, i seemed to land akwardly on left knee on one path of the grass which was uneven, it felt wierd and almost as though something had been compressed, i managed to finish though as i wasn't far from the end and there wasn't any major pain finishing off, so im hoping it's nothing to serious!!
God i am sweattting, was thankful of a shower mid way through the run though
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There may be a test to determine your stride pattern, but I'm not sure.
In general though, you will be one of three main types of runner.
1. Ankle rolls inwards, (Pronates).
2. Ankle rolls outwards, (Supinates)
3. Neutral style.
So getting something like a "cross trainer" might be an idea, but something with a bit of give / flexibility on the side the ankle moves towards would be good too.
Ask about this in a good sports shop and they should be able to help you hopefully.
In general though, you will be one of three main types of runner.
1. Ankle rolls inwards, (Pronates).
2. Ankle rolls outwards, (Supinates)
3. Neutral style.
So getting something like a "cross trainer" might be an idea, but something with a bit of give / flexibility on the side the ankle moves towards would be good too.
Ask about this in a good sports shop and they should be able to help you hopefully.
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I guess i'll have to ask around in some sports shops and see if they can give me any information. I have a pair of airmax running shoes which are old but were still around £60 at the time, they could be fine, they may well be, but i guess i won't know til perhaps it's too late?
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Fucking hate life
Another i hate life, it's shit /thread.
Perhaps it's the Alcohol who knows, i can still type properly, guess im good like that.
Well it was another boring evening but brother was going out with his mates (who i get along with, so in a sense they're friends of me also). I decided to go out, it was supposed to be "cheap night", aka gay night. £1 a drink, on selected drinks, so wnet out, went into a club, think it was like 5 pound to get in, had a pint of strongbow, a jagerbomb, a strongbow pint. Then after some stupid idiotic dancing (something i wouldn't mind doing if i were actually good at), we left there. Went to a different club which i said i didn't want ogto go to as ive left the evening because i thought it sucked in the past, paid around 3 quid to get in, bought a jagerbomb, which happened to be £4 and was just 1 in the other club. Drink it and still, feel like, what am i doing here. I ended up going home early - again, this is why i hardly go out drinking, its fucking shit, i dont like the drinks, the drinks dont like me, im not loaded on money as it is, and the whole scnee thing isnt for me.
Why am i even posting this at gone midnight? I dunno, i just thought i would, incase nyone cares as im starting to really value the purpose of life. Here's the tinh
aunt, Cousin, many family members, and im not bragging here or anything like that, you know me, have asid said, oh im really good looking you should be a model, and all that, im fairly good looking, why haven't i had a serious relationship? This was the question i often asked myself a couple yeras back with old friends (who i went away with but they seem to not want to know me, they never text me or anything, basically them, i dnt want to be around them and we're basically threw, billy no mates, so be it.) The problem was i never try, well that's the thing, if i can pull these birds, why dont i? Ive wondered that, im not gay or nothing just to clear that up, i just have a very very weird personality, feelings and views at times. They say you speak the truth when your drunk, maybe, but im not mega drunk, or i wouldn't be able to type this.
So yeah, im really valuing purpose in life, i hate life, why would i ever talk to parents about something like this, they wouldn't take it seriouisly, "things will get better", yeah well when i turned 18 i said im not happy with life, im going to change it, 15months later, same old shit, it's never going to change, sitting around isn't going to do anything, but i dont find clubbing enjoyable, i dunno, im a weirdo.
It seems i have no ambition or direction, younger brother who has good grades was handing out cvs today, trying to get part time work for a couple of months before studying again to earn some money, man i hold hands up to people like that, but if it were me, i have no interest what soever in anything likle that, which is going to keep me poor, so be it. Im not going tobe a bum life, but i dont know what i want, and perhaps i have high standards, or i cant accept myself into some kind of retail job. Give me all the money in the world (i mean this), millions and millions, won't change much, i don't feel that's the goal, happiness is, can money buy happiness who knows, but the happiness i want is to find the right girl, and get some real love, be appreciated and respected, perhaps anythiung like a book - would need fame, to be accepted, ive never felt accepted and wanted this for years, i need somwehere and something to go to.
I could write up whole lifestory within a few hours, but it would need some time, so that i can drag out all the words from volcabulary and get thoughts on par, this is just coming from alcohol fueld brain at this moment in time, but who would want to read it, i barely want to myself, honestly.
Will i come back here? Probably, but i just wanted to type this out as i am sick of the same thing day in day out, i need to change life, they say the best time of your life is when your young, if this is the case, ihave no hope for the future, what the hells wrong with me, if im going to moan and complain about life, why not give it to someone who is going to make use of it, i really cant be dealing wit h the walls in this house no more, im going to be going far away very shortly if things do not change, i am tired of saying that, so this is the last straw, i really have had it u to her with everything, a failed project and lifeform.
But i love you guys, you can see the dedication here
Another i hate life, it's shit /thread.
Perhaps it's the Alcohol who knows, i can still type properly, guess im good like that.
Well it was another boring evening but brother was going out with his mates (who i get along with, so in a sense they're friends of me also). I decided to go out, it was supposed to be "cheap night", aka gay night. £1 a drink, on selected drinks, so wnet out, went into a club, think it was like 5 pound to get in, had a pint of strongbow, a jagerbomb, a strongbow pint. Then after some stupid idiotic dancing (something i wouldn't mind doing if i were actually good at), we left there. Went to a different club which i said i didn't want ogto go to as ive left the evening because i thought it sucked in the past, paid around 3 quid to get in, bought a jagerbomb, which happened to be £4 and was just 1 in the other club. Drink it and still, feel like, what am i doing here. I ended up going home early - again, this is why i hardly go out drinking, its fucking shit, i dont like the drinks, the drinks dont like me, im not loaded on money as it is, and the whole scnee thing isnt for me.
Why am i even posting this at gone midnight? I dunno, i just thought i would, incase nyone cares as im starting to really value the purpose of life. Here's the tinh
aunt, Cousin, many family members, and im not bragging here or anything like that, you know me, have asid said, oh im really good looking you should be a model, and all that, im fairly good looking, why haven't i had a serious relationship? This was the question i often asked myself a couple yeras back with old friends (who i went away with but they seem to not want to know me, they never text me or anything, basically them, i dnt want to be around them and we're basically threw, billy no mates, so be it.) The problem was i never try, well that's the thing, if i can pull these birds, why dont i? Ive wondered that, im not gay or nothing just to clear that up, i just have a very very weird personality, feelings and views at times. They say you speak the truth when your drunk, maybe, but im not mega drunk, or i wouldn't be able to type this.
So yeah, im really valuing purpose in life, i hate life, why would i ever talk to parents about something like this, they wouldn't take it seriouisly, "things will get better", yeah well when i turned 18 i said im not happy with life, im going to change it, 15months later, same old shit, it's never going to change, sitting around isn't going to do anything, but i dont find clubbing enjoyable, i dunno, im a weirdo.
It seems i have no ambition or direction, younger brother who has good grades was handing out cvs today, trying to get part time work for a couple of months before studying again to earn some money, man i hold hands up to people like that, but if it were me, i have no interest what soever in anything likle that, which is going to keep me poor, so be it. Im not going tobe a bum life, but i dont know what i want, and perhaps i have high standards, or i cant accept myself into some kind of retail job. Give me all the money in the world (i mean this), millions and millions, won't change much, i don't feel that's the goal, happiness is, can money buy happiness who knows, but the happiness i want is to find the right girl, and get some real love, be appreciated and respected, perhaps anythiung like a book - would need fame, to be accepted, ive never felt accepted and wanted this for years, i need somwehere and something to go to.
I could write up whole lifestory within a few hours, but it would need some time, so that i can drag out all the words from volcabulary and get thoughts on par, this is just coming from alcohol fueld brain at this moment in time, but who would want to read it, i barely want to myself, honestly.
Will i come back here? Probably, but i just wanted to type this out as i am sick of the same thing day in day out, i need to change life, they say the best time of your life is when your young, if this is the case, ihave no hope for the future, what the hells wrong with me, if im going to moan and complain about life, why not give it to someone who is going to make use of it, i really cant be dealing wit h the walls in this house no more, im going to be going far away very shortly if things do not change, i am tired of saying that, so this is the last straw, i really have had it u to her with everything, a failed project and lifeform.
But i love you guys, you can see the dedication here
Re: Fat Around Button Area?
I'll tell you something you might not like to read.
Get over yourself. You're not living in Africa, you're living in Britain. You have many opportunities to be someone, just find a few and persue them.
You deserve a decent life, but nobody will give it to you. Screw people who think you should have a relationship or do this and that. It's not their life and pleasing them when you become unhappy in the process, isn't fair to yourself it's just unfair of them. You aren't them, so don't live like they do or did, unless you know it's 100% right for you,
Find a reasonable job for starters, even if you just sell stationary or computer games, or hardware or whatever, for 16 hours a week. Get a start in life and just do it.
You're not a failure at your age, because you're not a 50 something saying this stuff are you?
Wise up and take action and start to find the person you're meant to be okay.
Get over yourself. You're not living in Africa, you're living in Britain. You have many opportunities to be someone, just find a few and persue them
.You deserve a decent life, but nobody will give it to you. Screw people who think you should have a relationship or do this and that. It's not their life and pleasing them when you become unhappy in the process, isn't fair to yourself it's just unfair of them. You aren't them, so don't live like they do or did, unless you know it's 100% right for you,
Find a reasonable job for starters, even if you just sell stationary or computer games, or hardware or whatever, for 16 hours a week. Get a start in life and just do it.
You're not a failure at your age, because you're not a 50 something saying this stuff are you?
Wise up and take action and start to find the person you're meant to be okay
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