Jena's Journal.

[feelin-great]

house was built in the 60s I believe, so it's not the greatest, but it stays nice and warm. :] :]

Mine was built in 1900 - it doesn't hold heat AT ALL!! I don't think I would like the 76 either - I like to snuggle under the covers, too

[MissJenaKay]

12:13 Wake Up

12:20
-- 1 c Greek Yogurt
-- 3 oz Petite Carrots
-- .5 oz Almonds

4:00
-- 1 Apple

5:15
-- Salad :: Spinach, mushrooms, green beans, carrots, almonds, egg white (harboiled), a couple spoons of italian dressing.

[fit-fanatic-2025]

How you doing Jena?? To me you don't seem like your eating enough?? But I'm definitely no expert about dieting (understatement). Are you enjoying your time off of school?? Hope all is well!

[MissJenaKay]

How you doing Jena?? To me you don't seem like your eating enough?? But I'm definitely no expert about dieting (understatement). Are you enjoying your time off of school?? Hope all is well!

All is not well. I've been trying to eat, but there have been a lot of things going on. I'll update everyone later once things get sorted out and I can think clearly when I'm not a sobbing mess.

[fit-fanatic-2025]

Okay, take care of yourself! We all are here for your support too!

[MissJenaKay]

Okay, guys, I figured I'd let you all know what's going on in life right now.

I probably won't be terribly active and tracking food and such as well as I could be in the next week.

This is for a few reasons:
One. wisdom teeth have to be taken out on Monday, that means I'll be so tired and miserable I won't want to eat.
Two. grandfather (the only one I have left) was admitted to the hospital last night. We learned about this today, he had a minor stroke, but there is a large blood clot behind his heart. This is highly concerning for several reasons
Three. It's the holidays and thus parents try to keep me as busy as possible.
Four. I've been having horrible depression and bipolar problems.

This, since I'm a bizarre reverse comfort eater (I stop eating to feel less anxious and upset), means that I will most likely end up under eating a lot in the next week. If any of you feel the urge, any prayers for grandfather would be greatly appreciated.

I lost last paternal grandparent in September and I would really really rather not start losing on maternal side.

If you want to get in contact with me, send me a private message.
I hope things go well and I can get back to keeping better track and feeling better.

- Jena ♥

[fit-fanatic-2025]

Sending prayers and warm thoughts for you and your grandfather Jena! I really hope your grandfather will be okay and that you are able to control your bipolar. Sounds like a tough time right now. Just try take care of yourself emotionally and physically and we are here for your support too!

[MissJenaKay]

12:36 Wake Up (Decided I'd try keeping track today... If it doesn't get past breakfast, forgive me.)

1:18
-- 8 fl oz Fat Free Milk with 1 scoop Whey Protein
-- 1 Apple

5:15
-- Stirfry :: Beef Blade Steak cut into strips, chopped onion, chopped green and red bell pepper
-- Broccoli, boiled.

Rebekah :: Thanks, honey, I greatly appreciate it, we need all the prayers and well wishes we can get.

[Nokie173]

Four. I've been having horrible depression and bipolar problems.

BIG *HUG* I wish you all the best. Depression is not easy, but you have to be strong for your family.
I'm with Rebekah...Take care of yourself.

[MissJenaKay]

12:33 Wake Up

1:18
-- 8 fl oz Milk with 1 scoop protein powder
-- 3 oz Petite carrots

BIG *HUG* I wish you all the best. Depression is not easy, but you have to be strong for your family.
I'm with Rebekah...Take care of yourself.

Thanks. Being strong sucks though. I'm so sick of being strong though... I'm always the strong one. I don't dare ever cry when people can hear or see me and I feel like I have to pretend everything is just fine. . . I'm so stressed out and I haven't been eating hardly at all and I've been doing nothing be sleep.

4:40 Workout
-- 100 Sandbag Swing Challenge Click(However, I have no sandbag, so I just did the movement) "score" was 3 minutes 22 seconds
-- 112 Side Lunge Jumps Click Couldn't do more than the 112 I did since legs were too sore. Feel like a lazy bum, but I really don't care right now . . . It took me 2 minutes 14 seconds to do those 112.
(By the way, checked weight and even though I've been eating terribly and I haven't been working out, I've lost a 1.1 lbs in the past 8 days)

5:15
-- 8 fl oz Fat Free Milk with 1 scoop protein powder
-- 3 c Ancho Chili :: Stew Beef, ground venison, onion, green and red bell pepper, garlic, black beans, kidney beans, diced tomatoes with green chiles, Cilantro, chili seasoning

[Boss Man]

GOOD LUCK to you. If you need to talk, get in touch with me okay .

[MissJenaKay]

Thanks, Boss, I probably won't bother you though. Talking doesn't really help anyway...

[fit-fanatic-2025]

Thanks. Being strong sucks though. I'm so sick of being strong though... I'm always the strong one. I don't dare ever cry when people can hear or see me and I feel like I have to pretend everything is just fine. . . I'm so stressed out and I haven't been eating hardly at all and I've been doing nothing be sleep.

I feel for you Jena!! Tough times are horrible to go through.. But you can get through them! Hang in there and just try to take care of yourself and manage as best you can. We are here for you.

[MissJenaKay]

Thanks, I'm trying to get through this in one piece.

[MissJenaKay]

Even though I know I've been doing terribly in efforts to lose fat since I haven't been eating and I've been way too stressed out, I thought I'd let you all know that I'm still alive.

Tomorrow, I get wisdom teeth out, so.... yeah. I'll likely be out of commission completely for a day or two. I will try to get back into the game soon afterward barring any huge problems.