I need help

[lynkd34d]

I am new here, but i've not found such a rich, supportive or great site/community like this elsewhere. I joined a couple of months ago, figured I might use the the site to help try and lose weight.... Sadly I am so indecisive that I can't find a path to pick or stay with, im not sure where to even start. I am morbidly obese or fast approaching it, I have high blood pressure but I refuse meds for it as i've seen them in action and they seem to do more harm than good. I really badly need to and want to lose weight, but I have no taste for raw vegetables and would much rather not eat at all than eat something that tastes like im chewing on plastic. I have a big , this is biggest problem area. I eat large portions, if I don't then I feel empty, and it actually hurts to be hungry. This is a cry for help, a cry for advice, for guidance, a realization that I truly do not like the body I use every day, since I was 9. I am terrible at choosing good things to eat as I know what I like and do not take to change too quickly sometimes. I don't know where to begin, I don't know what I need, I lack will power sometimes I just cant help myself. Does anyone know what I mean? I literally feel like im looking up a 20 foot hole wanting to climb out but arms and hands continue to dig deeper and deeper. Please help.

Thanks for listening,
- Mike