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That's like one of those "no please don't keep us in suspense" scenariosNokie173 wrote: Meal #6 – TBA
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(Cliff hanger)
Question?Nokie173 wrote:Next time, I should say…. To be continue…
Dinner Update:
I was soooo hungry after work, I went a bought some chicken and ate it… The dinner was at 7, but I was starving by 5! I didn’t wait… I just ate!
I thought it was going to be me and her actually it was a total of 4. They wanted to order this and that and asked if I would eat it... I noticed they were feeling uncomfortable and a bit annoyed I didn’t want it so I told them to order what they want because it’s their favorite restaurant. This was ordered…. Stir fried rice noodles w/ veggies, ox tail curry w/ string beans, deep fried intestine (dunno pig? Cow? Not sure) Sour fish soup, chopped grilled beef in soy sauce, and white rice.
I ate… very little noodle (too oily, I was getting a head ache), chopped up grilled beef and a fish from the soup… I didn’t like the sour taste. I drank lots and lots of water! Then I stopped myself from eating. Everybody was stuffing their face with it and then looked at me and said… that’s all you’re eating? You want dessert? I was like, No thanks!
I was still hungry but the water filled me up. One of the guy was like “Oh, you’re one of those who don’t eat a night”… I’m like, “No. I eat…” Then the guy said… “Then you’re just picky and only stick with salad.” I was like Yes, I am picky. I just don’t like oily food like this!” Then everybody looked at me... ohwell, next time keep your mouth shut if you don’t want to hear me make a comment back at ya! But other than that little incident, everything was fine. They ate while I kept drinking water. Got home at 9 and had a protein shake.
Friday – Lower # 2
WU – butt kick, jumping jacks, and push ups
Back squat (50lbs) 3x12
Bulgarian Split Squat 3x12
Pull through or reverse hyper extension 3x12
Leg Extensions 3x12 (MAYBE)
Lying Leg Curls 3x12 (MAYBE)
CORE: (2x15)
Leg Raises
Scissor Cross
Planks
Ball plank
Ball crunch
Dead bug ball
Sumo kick
Diet:
Meal #1 – Plain oatmeal 1/4c, 1 whole egg
Meal #2 – Strawberries, cashews, protein shake
Meal #3 – Steam Broccoli, grilled chicken, brown rice (side peanut sauce)
Meal #4 – Steam String beans, grilled chicken, brown rice (side peanut sauce)
WORKOUT – Protein shake
Meal #5 – grilled chicken salad, wheat pita, and hummus
Meal #6 – grilled chicken salad
HAPPY FIRDAY!!!!
. You know, I’ve been eating bad and unhealthy food almost whole life, say about 20 plus years… I can’t expect to lose it in a day or a week. Some people can do it in a month but as I mentioned to you before… It took me a year and still working on it. At least I know I’m doing it healthy. There were times I didn’t eat much because I was really sick or was really stressed out. However, I kept it the same. Sometimes I play with diet for awhile… Like what I enjoy eating and what are the things I’m not eating enough of (Veggies & Fruits). I tried carb cycling before. It was ok but didn’t do it long because I needed energy to workout hard in order for me to burn more calories. I was lacking energy when I cut out the carbs… I was wasting time working out because I didn’t have energy to push myself… so I ended up being unproductive. The sad thing is, even if you explained to them it probably wouldn't do any good, they would still look at you like "one of those girls"! Oh well, at least you are healthyNokie173 wrote:One of the guy was like “Oh, you’re one of those who don’t eat a night”… I’m like, “No. I eat…” Then the guy said… “Then you’re just picky and only stick with salad.” I was like Yes, I am picky. I just don’t like oily food like this!” Then everybody looked at me... ohwell, next time keep your mouth shut if you don’t want to hear me make a comment back at ya!
Great job on sticking to your healthy stuff, though - it is so tempting when everyone else is eating the stuff you used to love!Nokie173 wrote:Expressing:
I wasn’t going to express this but I think I should because we all have our down time and need to come to a realization how we look and how we feel about the way we look.
Last night, I took a picture of myself… Finally, after I lost digital camera. I FOUND IT!!! Oh goodness, when I saw myself… body… high percentage of FAT… I wanted to cry! I wanted to kick the wall. I wanted to throw things across the room and break it (ok, maybe not... but I keep seeing movies that do that) I wanted to stay in a dark place so no one can see me or see how I look. I just saw myself… I was being negative… I just hated myself… I hated back, I hated legs, I hated whole body, and I hate how I hated myself! Mind you this was at night after the dinner (I didn’t eat much anyways).
I loaded the pictures to mini notebook and kept looking at pictures (front, side & back view), I kept staring at it, I kept hating myself for it. I was feeling all shitting and pitying myself. Then I went to the mirror and flexed arms… I’m thinking dang, I may hate legs and tummy and the rest of body, except the shape of arms that is slowly but surely developing…Then somehow I ended making myself laugh for no damn reason! Next thing I know I was talking to myself in the mirror and feeling good about myself. I went back to journal to see how far I’ve gotten. Yeah, it’s not where I wanted to be but it’s a realization that I need to keep pushing and go forward.
Why am I sharing this? … department got some junk food to celebrate no more Tax.
Also because it’s Friday… I’m getting lazy to go to the gym and do weights. But remembering the picture I saw last night… how much I hate it… I am sooooo ready to hit the weights and lift those bad boys! I didn’t touch any junk food and went on and continue to eat what I brought to work. If I eat those nasty & shitty food. I will continue to look and feel shitty about myself. The picture I just took will prove it to me and only me and it will only be own fault because I put those junk in mouth!
Man, I guess taking picture of myself really did help motivate and discipline me even more. How bad I want it??? I WANT it real bad!!!!
Have a good Friday... and be good on the weeeknd..
. . We all need to vent sometimes - and it helps to do that on here because everyone understands what you are going throughNokie173 wrote:Thanks all. I wasn't sure why I was so Pessimistic the other night.
The important part is that you are moving on and not letting it get in your way!
!) I give you TONS OF CREDIT!!!! Oh, , I think I would have punched a few of them - that is awful! But I am so very proud of you for keeping your coolNokie173 wrote:No matter what they said… They couldn’t bring me down or break me in to pieces because I was strong and I have you guys to keep me positive!
That's much more than I could have done. And I am happy you have enough support here to help keep you strong even around the rudest people - WAY TO GO!
Okay, that one would have probably sent me over the edge...and i would have had to deck them! You should have said "no, I'm worried I'll knock the s#@% out of you!!" I applaud your sense of control and for understanding that they were letting their alcohol control their mouth - and that you didn't let it rattle you. You handled yourself like an adult and kept a level head - most people would have acted out either with food or drink or just in bad behavior - but you showed them (whether they remember it or not) that you are MILES ahead of them in being a good, smart, fit, healthy person who makes good decisions and cares about their body. Yay Nokie!!!!Nokie173 wrote:“How come you’re not drinking?? Worried you’ll get even bigger?”
