I don't know, I never felt that I'm the type of person when she gets depressed, she runs for food. I never had, in fact sometimes I lose apetite completely, but now...I feel like mood swings are causing me to want to at junk food, even if I'm not really craving it. mind sees it as it's harmless, no not that harmless, but less harmful than before. I think of it i a way that goes like..I used to eat junk 24/7 a day, and had zero of anything healthy, and I wasn't that much of a bad shape, just a round f- up tummy, which goes and comes depending on going to the bathroom, which is very true with me.
However, lately, esepcially this week...I'm a in depressed mode. I don't know what's wrong with me. I seem to make up mind to have something even if i really don't want it.
I can't even explain it. I'm under a lot of stress, from emotion to physical to mental, and all of it affecting body, cardio preformance (I'm gettingtired after working out 17 mins! sometimes even less, and before I used to work out for 50 mins, and want to do MORE!
What's wrong with me...I'm not a very happy person. Never was, never will be. Not in the near future at least....
I feel like, as long as I'm this way, I'll never be able to do anything that has to do with body. Nothing.
Bad Dieting.
Not enough excersize. Not that I stop at 17 mins, I keep going, but...I don't feel that energy, and will power of wanting to do more...I'm not even doing good in university. Or doing any of work that I'm supposed to do. I'm dwelling on the small things...I wish I could reset brain in no time...
I hate being a girl. I really do.
Just really stressed out.
Moderators: Boss Man, cassiegose
It's just that this week has been horrible for me, and to be honest, I have no motivation whatsoever of any kind...whether about working out, studies, reading, dieting...everything...So I think I just need a break, so I'm treating this week like whatever. I know y'all think, but if you do that you'll never get to where you want...I may never do, just because of stress itself that I'm under everyday..sometimes I just can't take it.
It's funn, cause although I've been screwing up...at least 3-6 have told me I've obviously lost weight...well I did NOT lose # sort of weight, but fat, so it's a good thing, even though I see that I've gained a bit back, but i'll work it out hopefully by next week, I may feel better. and more motivated..I'm just not motivated to the bit right now...
Even energy has gone down drastically. working out preformance is poor, and weak, everday activities are down the drain..I cant even walk fast anymore...I'm suspecting few things...but who knows...It may get better....
It's funn, cause although I've been screwing up...at least 3-6 have told me I've obviously lost weight...well I did NOT lose # sort of weight, but fat, so it's a good thing, even though I see that I've gained a bit back, but i'll work it out hopefully by next week, I may feel better. and more motivated..I'm just not motivated to the bit right now...
Even energy has gone down drastically. working out preformance is poor, and weak, everday activities are down the drain..I cant even walk fast anymore...I'm suspecting few things...but who knows...It may get better....
I would suggest it wouldn't hurt though to consult a medical person. Unless your parents have a legal right to stop you, then you've nothing to lose, but there is a slight risk you might be Bi-polar for example, and you need to get proper clarification on your situation, then trying to tough it out, or treat it like a phase, or a side effect of educational / exam stress, or something like that, may not help, and you could be finding reasons to believe it's a temporary thing, and living in a bubble for years, not getting the life you deserve.
If a medical person can tell you what is up, and how you can help yourself, you'll be better in the long term.
You're smart cookie, so please don't let yourself carry on like this, and try to play it down, or shrug it off. You owe yourself the chance to be emotionally and mentally in A1 health, and the chance to be happy.
You're a lovely young woman, with clearly a great personality and a good heart, which is obvious when you see your situation in more than black and white, but you don't deserve to feel like you do. It's not your fault, or a defect of yours.
You don't have to be ashamed, or ambarrased about your inner self, but you recognise you have underlying issues, that may permeate deeper than, a few off days, or occasionally feeling bummed out, and this board unfortunately can't function, to bring life changes beyond its boundaries, even if we try to help, we're limited sometimes.
So please try to seek some help, and please don't look for things that might get in the way, and put yourself off. Your emotional and mental wellbeing are conrnerstones to a long, happy, physically rewarding life, which you can't acheve with just some weights Cardio, and mostly clean food.
It is going to be a tough decision for you to take, but you deserve to feel better than you do. Nobody with your human qualities deserves to feel how you do, and if a medical person gives you any hope, or a chance to improve how you feel for the long term, it has to be worth it, and if your family can't accept, or won't accept / recognise you are in this situation, and need to talk to someone better capable than we are, that's going to be your situation, going into this life change.
We'll give you support for this, with or without theirs, this isn't us saying we're no good to you anymore. This board will continue to support and encourage you with ANYTHING, that you do in life, when you need it, and that's a fact, but however much we care, or want to help, we can't help you beyond our limitations.
We're behind you, so when you make this decision to broach your problem head on, and make that first step, you'll not be alone okay
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GOOD LUCK, don't worry, and be strong. You deserve to be happy, and feel good about yourself. Don't waste the chance to find it, or later in life, you'll be living with regret.
Take care, and anything else we can do, we're always here for you, so don't say goodbye to us. We'll never say goodbye to you.
If a medical person can tell you what is up, and how you can help yourself, you'll be better in the long term.
You're smart cookie, so please don't let yourself carry on like this, and try to play it down, or shrug it off. You owe yourself the chance to be emotionally and mentally in A1 health, and the chance to be happy.
You're a lovely young woman, with clearly a great personality and a good heart, which is obvious when you see your situation in more than black and white, but you don't deserve to feel like you do. It's not your fault, or a defect of yours.
You don't have to be ashamed, or ambarrased about your inner self, but you recognise you have underlying issues, that may permeate deeper than, a few off days, or occasionally feeling bummed out, and this board unfortunately can't function, to bring life changes beyond its boundaries, even if we try to help, we're limited sometimes.
So please try to seek some help, and please don't look for things that might get in the way, and put yourself off. Your emotional and mental wellbeing are conrnerstones to a long, happy, physically rewarding life, which you can't acheve with just some weights Cardio, and mostly clean food.
It is going to be a tough decision for you to take, but you deserve to feel better than you do. Nobody with your human qualities deserves to feel how you do, and if a medical person gives you any hope, or a chance to improve how you feel for the long term, it has to be worth it, and if your family can't accept, or won't accept / recognise you are in this situation, and need to talk to someone better capable than we are, that's going to be your situation, going into this life change.
We'll give you support for this, with or without theirs, this isn't us saying we're no good to you anymore. This board will continue to support and encourage you with ANYTHING, that you do in life, when you need it, and that's a fact, but however much we care, or want to help, we can't help you beyond our limitations.
We're behind you, so when you make this decision to broach your problem head on, and make that first step, you'll not be alone okay
.GOOD LUCK, don't worry, and be strong. You deserve to be happy, and feel good about yourself. Don't waste the chance to find it, or later in life, you'll be living with regret.
Take care, and anything else we can do, we're always here for you, so don't say goodbye to us. We'll never say goodbye to you.
Thank you Boss Man, you always have been really nice and understanding toward situation. I'll continue doing what I'm doing, even if I have setbacks. Don't we all? I know for sure that everybody who does workout, of any sort of workouts have sets backs every once in a while, and I think it's okay. We're human after all, right?
I can seek a prof help tro be honest, but without parents knowing. In our uni, we have a psycologist, but I feel very uncomfortable with the idea, because people may hear me take an appointment, and taking the appointment itself IS emabrrasing. I know it's not..I aslways wanted to go...but...I always hold back on things. On anything. I've just been like this for a long time. Parents sometimes screw your life without them even knowing it. Don't worry. I'll keep asking Q's, and try to learn more...but, i know we all hate the "buts" part...I want to follow own way, with everything that I know...Even if it meant I won't achieve best, maybe I don't really have to? Maybe I should accept me as I am, a person with a little small , which decreased big time than 3 months ago. I should see that as a reward rather than focus on the , right?
I'm trying, trust me..and I wanna take it easy. I'm a very worried person. VERY. about everything...and once i get worried, instead of doin better, i do worse. I know myself...
So..I'll take it easy...on myself, for the now. I'm still young, and got life ahead me...I don't want to tear hair because I had 2 munchkins, or ate something fried....
As long as I don't overdo it, anmd overeat it, like I used to before, and keep it as minimum as I can...I believe I should be just fine that way.
Thank you again, really. Your support always makes me think better, and feel postivie, and hope for something more...
I'll get there, maybe not in 2-3 months, but I'll get there when it's time. I'm planning by the end of '07, i'll be a knockout. I'll just wait, and see.
I can seek a prof help tro be honest, but without parents knowing. In our uni, we have a psycologist, but I feel very uncomfortable with the idea, because people may hear me take an appointment, and taking the appointment itself IS emabrrasing. I know it's not..I aslways wanted to go...but...I always hold back on things. On anything. I've just been like this for a long time. Parents sometimes screw your life without them even knowing it. Don't worry. I'll keep asking Q's, and try to learn more...but, i know we all hate the "buts" part...I want to follow own way, with everything that I know...Even if it meant I won't achieve best, maybe I don't really have to? Maybe I should accept me as I am, a person with a little small , which decreased big time than 3 months ago. I should see that as a reward rather than focus on the , right?
I'm trying, trust me..and I wanna take it easy. I'm a very worried person. VERY. about everything...and once i get worried, instead of doin better, i do worse. I know myself...
So..I'll take it easy...on myself, for the now. I'm still young, and got life ahead me...I don't want to tear hair because I had 2 munchkins, or ate something fried....
As long as I don't overdo it, anmd overeat it, like I used to before, and keep it as minimum as I can...I believe I should be just fine that way.
Thank you again, really. Your support always makes me think better, and feel postivie, and hope for something more...
I'll get there, maybe not in 2-3 months, but I'll get there when it's time. I'm planning by the end of '07, i'll be a knockout. I'll just wait, and see.