Cassie's 2010 Contest Prep Journal

[cassiegose]

8 days out...

I'm cranky, hungry, exhausted, hungry, tired, and cranky today. So far the cravings haven't been too bad but last night they hit me like a load of bricks. Actually had to go to bed as I was standing in kitchen thinking about all of the yummy foods that I wanted to eat. Haven't had a cheat meal... or even a treat... since December and still have a good 7 weeks to go. This sucks. After going to bed I laid there for a good 30 minutes thinking about cookies, brownies, cake, chocolate, peanut butter, peanut butter chocolate cheesecake, ice cream, grapes, strawberries, mangos.....

I have this quote sitting next to desk and i've been reading it all day for inspiration:
"Let me tell you something you already know. The world aint all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it aint how hard you hit; its about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. Thats how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth then go out and get what youre worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit and not pointing fingers saying you aint where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that aint you. You're better than that". Rocky Balboa

This is another one that I keep reading:
"Anyone can give up, its the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, thats true strength".

This last week is always the hardest... I just have to buckle down, hope it passes quickly, and get through it. Nobody told me this would be easy, I guess thats why I love the sport to much. Because its really freaking hard, it sucks, and there are few that are crazy enough to endure the pain and sacrifices that it takes to be a bodybuilder.

I can do this.

Guess thats all i know today. Hope everybody is having a great friday and has a happy weekend!

Cassie

[feelin-great]

I'm cranky, hungry, exhausted, hungry, tired, and cranky today.

Even in this miserable state...

Guess thats all i know today. Hope everybody is having a great friday and has a happy weekend!

you keep an upbeat attitude.

That says a lot about your character! You have an amazing attitude

[ironwill]

Wow <wiping the eyes> theres some inspiration on a friday afternoon. You go gurl. I was reading somehwere about who should, or can call themselves a "bodybuilder" and this person contended the true bodybuilder was a person who has done shows and endured the grueling regimine and diet necessary. You understand it, unlike most of us, as you have done it, and are currently doing. Inspiring is what you are, most of us struggle to give up one thing or two bad things, and you have you this thing to the science of eating one or two extra almonds, one extra flake of oatmeal.

Very cool....your doing awesome, you CAN do it, and you WILL do it, because you have the WILLpower to tell your body and mind what it's going to do, not it telling you what to do. Mind over matter, and you got the stuff. You challenge me when I read these to up game, as I think I have the hardest head of anyone I know, and the "Ironwill" that can't be broken, but you give me lesson's on the junk.......truly inspring, and a pleasure to sit on the sidelines cheering........... lady <on one knee bowing>.......

[skully]

I think you're so amazing cassie. The will you have is so strong!

I'd probably give you the worst advice ever, but I don't like seeing people taking certain things too seriously...well im very pessimistic...so i'll shut up there..but once you're done for the next comp.

One day, get all the junk you love, stay in a room and EAT It. You'll love it and hate it all at once, that you wouldn't wanna have it for a while!

I tend to do sometime. Just instead of eating one cheat meal or whatever, i'd eat a whole bunch of crap, feel so good and digusted at the same time, that it takes me longer to actually fall back into the "I CRAVE..." mode.

You're doing great and girl you look AMAZING!!!

[cassiegose]

Thank you guys for all of your kind words and encouragement. You guys are the BEST.

Just got done with 2nd workout of the day, munching on some celery and asparagus now, and getting excited to be off work in 1 hour and 10 minutes. Things are looking up.

[Boss Man]

I've known for a long time what you're capable of. It's not just about the beauty or the intellect, but the strength of character.

You're someone who has known what it's like, to not be in control of things other people can be and now you're the one in control. You're the one saying I can and I will now. You're the one starting to prove that the things you said were possible, that some juicer said you couldn't do, are still very possible.

You can now be not just an athlete, but a very, very positive rolemodel to all females and you deserve to be so proud of your achievements over the past 10 years or so, to be the well educated, athlete you are now, considering the person with life issues you used to be.

You as always are doing a fantastic job of things and will look every inch the sparkling diamond you are capable of being.

I'm proud of you and I know you're capable of so much.

GOOD LUCK .

[Bonnie]

That is some seriously GREAT looking muscle

[lareinamae]

"Champions do not become champions when they win the event, but in the hours, weeks, months, years they spend preparing for it. The victorious performance itself is merely the demonstration of their championship character." ~T. Alan Armstrong

[cassiegose]

"Champions do not become champions when they win the event, but in the hours, weeks, months, years they spend preparing for it. The victorious performance itself is merely the demonstration of their championship character." ~T. Alan Armstrong

I like that one. Did you get the ones I emailed you?

[cassiegose]

Hello friends!

Today I am 3 days out from show (not counting the rest of today as I'd really just love for this day to be over).

Right now I'm a wee bit miserable. sleeping issues have gone from bad to worse lately and I think I got around 5 hours of sleep last night... in that 5 hours I think I got up to go to the bathroom atleast 3 times as I'm drinking an insane amount of water right now. As I sit here I feel like I could very easily crawl under desk and take a little nappy-nap... unfortunately I'm at work though and nappy-naps aren't allowed so I'm fighting like hell to stay awake.

The diet is slowly going from bad to worse.... However after hearing what LaReina's coach wants her to do for her peak week I don't feel so sad about limited carbs this week. I'm sure glad that I live a good 5 hours away from LaReina as I don't want to be anywhere near her when shes going through peak week! LOL! Just kidding Reina.

I was walking through the gym yesterday and walked past a trainer (who is a friend of mine) while he was working with a client. After I walked past the client told the trainer "there goes idol".... The trainer came into the weight room and told me about it a little later. It made day.

Have I mentioned that I'm absolutely exhausted today?

workouts lately have been somewhere between bad and poor. This morning I had 15 people in spin class and it was a struggle to get through class. Its hard enough to motivate myself to get out of bed and drag sorry butt to the gym at 4freaking45 in the morning... Trying to motivate a class of 15 in current state is a real challenge. Luckily I made it through. I was FULLY prepared to receive some kind of rude comment from the guy who always tells me I need to eat... I even had a super great response prepared. I must have had cranky face on though because he was smart enough not to say anything today.

Hmmm... I suppose thats all I know today. Hopefully this post makes sense. I'm a wee bit out of it today so might just be rambling....

Hope all is well with EVERYBODY!

*hugs*

Cassie

[Bonnie]

Ramble all u want carb starved woman, best of luck on your latest show

[fitoverforty]

Wow, only 3 days from your show! time flies doesn't it! Well, I know it is hard for you now, but you will prevail - you will make it - and you will be fantastic!

Trying to motivate a class of 15 in current state is a real challenge.

Cassie, you don't have to say a word to anyone to be a motivation...just looking at you (as demonstrated by the client with the trainer you walked past) and how you have chiseled your body into the lean, mean, muscled machine it is now it motivation enough I'm sure!!

Rock on, girl - T. Alan Armstrong has it right.......you're already a champion in eyes. Best of luck to ya for the show. Just be your awesome self, you'll do great.

[skully]

Hello friends!

Today I am 3 days out from show (not counting the rest of today as I'd really just love for this day to be over).

Right now I'm a wee bit miserable. sleeping issues have gone from bad to worse lately and I think I got around 5 hours of sleep last night... in that 5 hours I think I got up to go to the bathroom atleast 3 times as I'm drinking an insane amount of water right now. As I sit here I feel like I could very easily crawl under desk and take a little nappy-nap... unfortunately I'm at work though and nappy-naps aren't allowed so I'm fighting like hell to stay awake.

The diet is slowly going from bad to worse.... However after hearing what LaReina's coach wants her to do for her peak week I don't feel so sad about limited carbs this week. I'm sure glad that I live a good 5 hours away from LaReina as I don't want to be anywhere near her when shes going through peak week! LOL! Just kidding Reina.

I was walking through the gym yesterday and walked past a trainer (who is a friend of mine) while he was working with a client. After I walked past the client told the trainer "there goes idol".... The trainer came into the weight room and told me about it a little later. It made day.

Have I mentioned that I'm absolutely exhausted today?

workouts lately have been somewhere between bad and poor. This morning I had 15 people in spin class and it was a struggle to get through class. Its hard enough to motivate myself to get out of bed and drag sorry butt to the gym at 4freaking45 in the morning... Trying to motivate a class of 15 in current state is a real challenge. Luckily I made it through. I was FULLY prepared to receive some kind of rude comment from the guy who always tells me I need to eat... I even had a super great response prepared. I must have had cranky face on though because he was smart enough not to say anything today.

Hmmm... I suppose thats all I know today. Hopefully this post makes sense. I'm a wee bit out of it today so might just be rambling....

Hope all is well with EVERYBODY!

*hugs*

Cassie

I learned lesson NEVER to drink more than a FEW sips late at night. Especially 30 minutes before I sleep! I hate waking up to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night!

And Cassie you're many people's idols, and not only that client!!! I think you're truly amazing for what you're doing and achieving!

Good luck on the show!!

[Fygle]

I always used to have uninterrupted sleep, but with increased water intake I wake up same time every night to go to the bathroom. I don't mind it, as a matter of fact I like it, because I get to enjoy going back to sleep

[ironwill]

I wish we could all be there in person cheering you on. Like your own cheering section....bet we'd be the loudest bunch in the place.....when you walked on stage we'd all go nuts...your gonna be awesome....