Skully's Journal (Diet/workout)

[skully]

Woke up in the morning, had a little water only. Since I went for the body analysis, I didn't want food to affect weight/results etc.

10:30 1 Aplen bar as I was going back home (60 cals)

11:00 (real breakfast) 1 egg w/yolk, Special K pro-plus w/low fat milk and green tea (200-300 cals)

1: 00 p.m. 2 rice cakes (70), w 1tbs of PB in both (200), 15gram of protein shake w/low fat milk and water (100 cals).

I wanted something a little heavy and takes more time to digest, because there is a huge meeting at our house, and we don't know (we, the family), when we will eat lunch or WHAT we will eat either. I'm hoping by 3-3:30 p.m. max.

3:30 (so there was a lot of high calorie meals I'd say, but I think I ate acceptably) I had little white rice, 1/4 of a plate, grilled chicken breast (but cooked with skin, didn't eat the skin tho), then had 1 medium piece of shrimp, and 1 mini (meatball-like) fish. About a 150ml of lemon juice. Had a few bite of veggies too. some green stuff! Probably 500 cals.

Cardio: HIIT 25 minutes

6:00 - Protein Shake

8:00 - Whole wheat Tortilla bread (200) w/ 2 turkey slices (80), 1 low fat cheese slice (50), mustard (30-50), shredded lettuce, and black olives. Total 400 cals or about.

I'll be sleeping between 11-12.

I think I'm still having a lot of carbs at night, I can't seem to eat anything w/o bread at night. I still think I didn't go overboard with calorie intake.

Should i have another meal at 10:30 or so? What should I have? A protein shake? I cannot eat meat. I can have another tbs of peanut butter, but I think I had too much as it is earlier?

[skully]

I'm not feeling well today. kinda in a bad mood aside from the fact I couldn't take a trip to the bathroom (That causes me crazy bloating and discomfort)

Meal 1, 9:00 - Brown Bread Sandwich with scrambled eggs and 1 slice of low fat cheese and green tea

10:00-11:00 -Workout, weights

Meal 2, 11:15 - Protein shake, 10 minutes later 1 small brown bread with labneh and zatar and 1 granola bar

Meal 3, 2:00 - Grilled chicken, rice, veggies, a bit of lemon juice

Nap from 3:00-4:30 (Not like I really COULD nap, too much noises)

Meal 4, 5:00 - 1 Rice cake with 1.5tb of Peanut Butter, and Granola bar

6:30-7:00 - Body balance class (Stretching, Tai Chi, Yoga sort of stuff)

Meal 5, 8:00 - 1 slice of brown bread with turkey and cottage cheese, 5 vine leaves, a little of hummus.

Dunno what I want to eat at 10ish. but most likely 1 rice cake with 1 tbs of PB, and a protein shake with milk and water.

[skully]

Today hasn't been best, and everything I ate so far was a choice (with 1 craving)

9:00 Very little egg (couldn't eat it!), special K Protein plus cereal, green tea (Barely 200 cals)

10:30 - 2 munchkins from DD. and cappuccino w/ low fat milk, sweetener, and some choco powder. (I'd assume it was 300)

12:40 - 1 Sandwich: White tortilla bread, with grilled chicken, lettuce, garlic sauce (abt 2 tbs), and a couple of fries inside, pickles, and diet coke (Craving) I missed eating this particular sandwich from uni, which is not good. The more I miss/crave the food, the more I will end up eating it. (600)

It's 4:30 now. I should eat something but I don't feel good. stomach has been acting up these past 2 days. Eh. I don't know if I want to workout or not. Ideally I should take the day off. Because

Fri: light cardio
Sat: HIIT
Sun: Weights ( I'm sore from yesterday's workout)...
Mon: I could take the day off, but part of me is saying go exercise for 20 minutes on a elliptical with low and hard intensity, and do some love handles workouts (which are coming off nicely, btw). Blah. can't make up mind.
Tues: weights.
...last week I took wed/fri off. Blaaah me and thinking! I'll just go for 30 minutes to the gym and leave.

4:45...and will have 1 stirred yogurt and 1 PB in a rice cake. PERIOD! (200-300)

So I did go to the gym, and did 15 minutes on an elliptical with different effort levels, going back and forth between 1,6,10,12,15

Did some love handles exercises, and asked the trainer to help me with how to do full push-ups. I clearly can do 4 only. so I have to work on that.

6: 45 protein shake

8:00 Whole wheat pasta (about 2 servings, with grilled chicken), little hummus, 2 vine leaves.

[skully]

9:00 a.m. 1 scarmbled egg in brown bread slice with low fat cheese, green tea

10:00-11:00 Weights

11:15 Protein shake, 1 small brown bread with low fat labneh and zatar, low fat granola bar

2:00 meat balls, with a bit of rice, and 1 potato ball, lol, with corn and carrots mixed, a bit of lemon juice

5:00 1 pear, peanut butter in a rice cake, peanut butter choco-chunk granla bar

6:15-7:30 Body combat + Ab blaster

7:40 Protein shake

8:30 - whole wheat tortilla with turkey, olives, lil mustard, slice of low fat cheese, lettuce, a bit of green tea and that will not affect sleep, because before i used to ALWAYS have green tea at night, and never suffered sleeping problems. problem is rather mental and not physical.

I am going to head to bed by 11:30-12

I may just have another protein shake alone.

[skully]

9:00 1 boiled egg, 1 brown bread sandwich with labneh and zatar, green tea (350 cals)

10:30 Coffe. granola bar (200 cals)

12:45 1 salad (Grilled chicken, lettuce, olives, Feta cheese (5 cubicles), cucumber, carrots) with Balsamic Ving., sprite (350-500)

4:30 a bag of light popcorn which i dipped with peanut butter (3 tbs) (400-500)

Dinner is soon...I have no idea what I want to eat....and today is off-exercise day.

So I literally had to force myself to eat I doubt I even consumed more than 150 cals...

Ate half of a scrambled egg, with a bit of cottage cheese in it. Few bites of Special K pro-plus. and like 3 green olives.


i didnt go for the gym for one day.........and i feel depressed. it's not because of the gym in particular...just uni work is really killing me...i hate this...seems like ill be getting depressed for the next 5 months. GREAT.

[cassiegose]

i didnt go for the gym for one day.........and i feel depressed. it's not because of the gym in particular...just uni work is really killing me...i hate this...seems like ill be getting depressed for the next 5 months. GREAT.

You definitely WILL be depressed for the next 5 months if you continue to focus on the negative and pretty much plan on being depressed. Chin up girl! You're going to get through it! Focus on the positive things in life!!

[skully]

i didnt go for the gym for one day.........and i feel depressed. it's not because of the gym in particular...just uni work is really killing me...i hate this...seems like ill be getting depressed for the next 5 months. GREAT.

You definitely WILL be depressed for the next 5 months if you continue to focus on the negative and pretty much plan on being depressed. Chin up girl! You're going to get through it! Focus on the positive things in life!!

there are NO postitive things in life, especially university.

[starlet]

there are NO postitive things in life, especially university.

You're joking right?

[cassiegose]

i didnt go for the gym for one day.........and i feel depressed. it's not because of the gym in particular...just uni work is really killing me...i hate this...seems like ill be getting depressed for the next 5 months. GREAT.

You definitely WILL be depressed for the next 5 months if you continue to focus on the negative and pretty much plan on being depressed. Chin up girl! You're going to get through it! Focus on the positive things in life!!

there are NO postitive things in life, especially university.

You're right, if you CHOOSE not to see the positive things in life then there will be no positive things in your life.

"Change your thoughts and you can change your world".

Here are a few things that I'm thankful for. Maybe this will help you to see things a bit differently:

1) I was able to get out of bed this morning and exercise in a warm, clean, gym. I know many people who are sick, injured, even paralyzed who are NOT able to get out of bed in the morning and get in a nice rejuvinating workout. I also know there are people out there who can't afford gym memberships or simply don't have access to a gym. I feel pretty darn blessed that I'm healthy enough to be able to work out and I feel doubly blessed that i live in a country where I have access to a nice gym.

2) As I sit here in office at work I feel blessed that I have a job to go to in the morning. From where I sit I can see bachelors degree hanging on the wall (yes I hung bachelors degree on the wall. I'm freaking proud of it and want to see it every day). As I look at degree I feel very lucky that I live in a region where I was able to attend college and get an education. I know there are many out there who aren't able to obtain an education. I'm sure glad I was able to get one.

3) Also as i sit here I have a nice big bowl of oatmeal sitting in front of me. Its warm, tasty, and healthy. I feel VERY lucky to be able to have access to regular meals and clean water. Its nice not to have to go hungry like many of the people in the world.

4) I'm typing this on a nice high tech computer. With this computer I'm able to reach out to others here on shapefit (which i'm really not supposed to do while at work but i do it anyway) and i'm able to complete work tasks in a nice and efficiant manner. To right i a brand new copy/fax/scan machine (which I just recieved yesterday! YAY!) to left is a telephone. Last night after work I went home and sat on nice comfy couch and watched tv for an hour before going to bed. Man I'm sure glad I have access to all this technology. I know many people in the world don't have access to the technology that I have so i feel pretty lucky. It sure makes life more enjoyable and easier.

5) When I opened email inbox this morning I had a message from best friend, 2 other good friends, and mother. I feel extremely blessed for the friends and family in life. I know there are many people in the world who don't have family and friends. I'm sure glad I do. I don't have a big family nor am I one of those people with an overly abundant social life. However I do have a few close friends and 2 parents who love me and for that I am thankful.

I could go on all day with the things that I'm thankful for but I'm going to end on that as I have stuff to do. Amna, stop focusing on the negative and look for the positive things in life. THEY ARE THERE! You just aren't seeing them because you're having a pity party. Knock it off. Its not that bad.

[skully]

Man, school is AWESOME. I wish I could go back to being in college full-time. I had SO much free time even though I had a lot of work. I was never so active in life, and I got into things like karate and hiking, and I got involved with tons of groups (I'm an English major, so it was with the school newspaper and publishing groups).

Plus, school encourages you to think and question and be open to new things. AWESOME. I'm going back to grad school part-time, and it has totally changed outlook on things...I have more thoughts and ideas, and I'm more invested in the path I'm taking in life.

Once you're out of school and in "the real world," you don't have time for anything anymore but work, and you don't get to set your own schedule anymore, so no more sleeping in until 10. Now I do work and school, so I really don't have time for anything.

So there are TONS of positive things about life, especially the university! You should be in a major that you love, so once the stupid core classes are out of the way, you should be loving school! If you don't love what you're doing, change it.

School has been one of the wosrt time of life so far. I hate learning new things. I hate going to classes and being pressured about grades. I hate doing the professors job, because he can't do it himself. I'm sick of a lot of things that I could list about why i hate school so much. I hate group projects. i hate dealing with hyman beings in real life.

Maybe ill be better at work, because i wont be graded anymore or worry about all that shit they put us through.

I cant change what im doing, which is journalism, which i hate btw, because i am in last 2 semesters...and i dont like anything else, because im stupid and not good at anything whatsoever. im a useless piece of shit on earth, honestly.

[skully]

Mannn I looove school. I took a little over a year off and it was awful! Bills? Working? Lame. People actually PAY YOU to read! How cool is that?! Learning is probably favorite thing ever, besides unicorns, and man do I ever love unicorns. I have never worked so hard and enjoyed it so much! Maybe I just get really boring jobs, but I get the feeling that most jobs are kind of like the ones I end up with... Boring and working with people who have no idea what's going on.

But you know? That's a big part of why I work out. No one tells me what to do or gets mad if I do it in the wrong order or cares how I dress (which is fortunate because workout clothes are LOUD). I can go and just sort of lose myself in workout. The stress just melts off shoulders so I can deal with everything else, because that is one thing that is 100% mine and NO ONE can take it away. LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!

<3 Feel better!

I never enjoyed school, its not like i have a lot of friends, or CAN be friends with people. I hate the atmosphere, most of the people...it's just a whole depressing place, an i hate it. i find myself better at jobs than school. somehow i can manage it. i feel productive. unlike school which is pressuring...pressuring...presurring.

[skully]

You're right, if you CHOOSE not to see the positive things in life then there will be no positive things in your life.

"Change your thoughts and you can change your world".

Here are a few things that I'm thankful for. Maybe this will help you to see things a bit differently:

1) I was able to get out of bed this morning and exercise in a warm, clean, gym. I know many people who are sick, injured, even paralyzed who are NOT able to get out of bed in the morning and get in a nice rejuvinating workout. I also know there are people out there who can't afford gym memberships or simply don't have access to a gym. I feel pretty darn blessed that I'm healthy enough to be able to work out and I feel doubly blessed that i live in a country where I have access to a nice gym.

2) As I sit here in office at work I feel blessed that I have a job to go to in the morning. From where I sit I can see bachelors degree hanging on the wall (yes I hung bachelors degree on the wall. I'm freaking proud of it and want to see it every day). As I look at degree I feel very lucky that I live in a region where I was able to attend college and get an education. I know there are many out there who aren't able to obtain an education. I'm sure glad I was able to get one.

3) Also as i sit here I have a nice big bowl of oatmeal sitting in front of me. Its warm, tasty, and healthy. I feel VERY lucky to be able to have access to regular meals and clean water. Its nice not to have to go hungry like many of the people in the world.

4) I'm typing this on a nice high tech computer. With this computer I'm able to reach out to others here on shapefit (which i'm really not supposed to do while at work but i do it anyway) and i'm able to complete work tasks in a nice and efficiant manner. To right i a brand new copy/fax/scan machine (which I just recieved yesterday! YAY!) to left is a telephone. Last night after work I went home and sat on nice comfy couch and watched tv for an hour before going to bed. Man I'm sure glad I have access to all this technology. I know many people in the world don't have access to the technology that I have so i feel pretty lucky. It sure makes life more enjoyable and easier.

5) When I opened email inbox this morning I had a message from best friend, 2 other good friends, and mother. I feel extremely blessed for the friends and family in life. I know there are many people in the world who don't have family and friends. I'm sure glad I do. I don't have a big family nor am I one of those people with an overly abundant social life. However I do have a few close friends and 2 parents who love me and for that I am thankful.

I could go on all day with the things that I'm thankful for but I'm going to end on that as I have stuff to do. Amna, stop focusing on the negative and look for the positive things in life. THEY ARE THERE! You just aren't seeing them because you're having a pity party. Knock it off. Its not that bad.

I know it may sounds weird to say this, but i dont feel thankful about almost anything. because nothing comes in nicely for me. everything sucks...and big issue now is universityi. i wish i could just quit or something...it's a big source of depression...just talking abt it at this moment changed mood 180 degrees from being "enjoying a day out with full of crap food" to a depressed "i wanna die mood". seriously.

im not blessed with friends, nor a sane family...so thats one big thing I AM DEFINITELY not thankful for.

[skully]

I probably shouldnt write what i ate today...since 50% was crap and was at the wrong time. Being a depressed mood didn't exactly help much. but whatevr ill write it down anyway...plus its sort of off day (from food)

9:00 scrambled egg sandwich with low fat cheese, green tea

10:20-11:15 weights (At least I can see an improvement, I was able to do 2 sets of 4 reps with 20 kgs barbell)

11:30 Protein shake, granola bar

1:30 Subway sandwich: roasted chicken, olives, lettuce, mustard, low fat mayo

3:00 Jelly cola ( i dun EVEN know i picked it, i dont even like it that much)

3:30 Actvia stirred yogurt

7:30 16oz of steamed corn, with a lot of butter, cheese, and a bit of salt and pepper

9:45 Chicken Casear salad with extra dressing

So yeah...about 3,000 cals I'd assume, probably 1000 just from fat. Sweet, Amna. Sweeeet.

[cassiegose]

[quote="skully"]im not blessed with friends, nor a sane family...so thats one big thing I AM DEFINITELY not thankful for.
[quote="cassiegose"]

I never said that i was blessed with friends. I said I was blessed to have the friends that I have. These people didn't just magically appear in life. I live in a small town and actually had to go out and MAKE friends. It took effort on part. Unfortunately life is like this sometimes. You don't just get stuff just becuase you want it. You actually have to WORK for most good things in life. Its sad but true. Also, I never said that family was sane. I just said that they love me and i'm thankful for that. I've come to realize that about 99% of families have issues. Its just the way it is.

All I can say is that things will not improve until you stop choosing to feel sorry for yourself. There are many many many others in this big world who have it MUCH worse than you do. Happiness is a choice dear. Its up to you whether you CHOOSE to be happy or choose to feel crummy.

[skully]

Cassie, you're right to an extent. I agree with you. But depression is rather genetic in family, and although i was on meds and stopped abruptly (w/o) a doc consultation....i'd assume to get depression periods. Sadly, I only get them when I have university, because I don't know how to deal with pressure at all. Not school pressure at least.

It's very hard to live in a house where your day is daily saying he wants to kill himself. Seriously. I had a long period of suicide attempts, myself. I am shocked i am still here. I won't say I'm grateful, but I'm not hate-ful toward it either.

And yeah i'm kinda mood these days because I am obviously getting monthly...i feel bloated, fat...and all that crap, in addition to a crazy semester unlike any of the others I had before...I don't have anyone to really help me or sort things out with me.

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amatlack....

I honestly had a passion for writing, but not anymore. I lost it. There is no point to it anymore. I am aware of the deadlines and the way newspapers work...i worked in a newspaper before...and i dont mind work pressure, but I mind school pressure. There is not point of changing anything now. I hate studying. I cannot change that fact. I still get good grades, because I work off as much as I can, but every single day for me is a struggle...honestly.

I could safely say that I hate a lot of things out there.

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Lesplease,,,,

I realize a lot of families if not ALL families are not sane...but some are crazier than the others.

I am glad that I was able to pull of 20kgs honestly...it's a big step, and shows progress, that makes me satisfied.

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What I ate today. Not the best, but not the worst either.

12:00, 1 Puri w/cheese, VERY little cereal, coffee

2:30, Chicken, rice, veggies

4:30, Protein shake, 2 rice cakes with PB

7:30, Popcorn and lemon and mint juice (movies)

10:00, Chicken Caesar Salad, BUT with Balsamic ving., NO croutons, NO cheese. Basically, lettuce and chicken.

That's what I had for the day. In total it's probably about 1,800 cal. I think I need to eat a little less this week to get back into the game, because I had a lot of fat yesterday, I think i even gained 1 KG in one day. Some say it's impossible...I literally had a palm size butter in corn yesterday. I have no idea how much FAt is that. 1/4 of a pound, a pound, 2 pounds,,,who knows. I didn't eat the whole thing, but it was mixed with the butter, so I got half of it for sure. + the Caesar dressing...which was probably 400 cals on it's own. ...so yeah...