FA50, I am sorry to hear your Aunt passed away, these things are never easy to bear when it's people who mean something to you.
I hope that you can try to find something that will now pass for normality in your life, so as to quickly quell any potential chaos and uncertainty and you can settle into a more fixed way of life and I hope the trials to come over the next few days and the final goodbye go smoothly and you can eventually give your Aunt the peace I'm sure you want for her as quickly and as positively as can be
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GOOD LUCK and best wishes. You should be proud of everything you did for her. You put your own life and some of your happiness on hold to be there and I'm proud of you for such acts of nobility and sacrifice for her, when at times things must have been hard to cope with and no doubt occasionally frustrating and a little upsetting, but all you could have ever done was what you felt was your best and just trusted that your intelligence, common sense and heart would give you the capability to try and do what was needed, as well as could be expected of anyone.
You are a fine upstanding Lady and as key member of this site, Ive always been here for people to send messages to, about anything they are feeling in their lives, because I want peoples physical goals to be made easier by them having the right frame of mind and emotional balance to help them progress, so if you need or would like to talk to another person, get in touch with me anytime, but take care, chin up and know that you DO have what it takes, to make it through these last few days of reconciling your Aunts passing with the relevant persons and then being there for her final hurrah.
I don't know what it's been like to have lived with all this for so long, but I am certain you were of a great comfort to her and proved to her that when she gave you what she could in her younger life, to make you who you are now, you repaid her in later life, by showing her the sort of person you'd grown up to be and you clearly validated some of her life for her with your actions
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I'm sure you'll have the memories and maybe one or two mannerisms and / or funny little phrases she used to do / say, to keep the best of her alive after she's gone and I'm sure you'll do what you can, within reason, to not let her fade away from the lives of those who mattered to her.
You've clearly turned out to be pretty amazing in your own way, so it says a lot about her I think and I try not to think of the deceased in their final times, but in their happier, more independent times, as that's often more of the person they were in our lifetimes than not and it's in the better days where often the bulk of the memories of them come from.
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GOOD LUCK again and just know that some of strength and private message box are yours to use at any time
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NO wind so far. Suppose to go up to 5 for the day. 
So sorry you are achy today, and hope the Aleve helps. I'll be crossing fingers that the other worker does not call in for the weekend. The Finnish music sounds like fun. Hard to be down when there's a lively polka played--even DA used to get her feet tapping to her polka CD. I wish I'd thought to look for a Finn polka CD for her.
It was just nice to spend some time with best girl. 