C-tina's work out blog!

[rockchick_82808]

so i went to the gym today and totally kicked ! i have gone the fastest i have ever gone on the tread mill! quick re-cap at 5k race over the summer time per mile was 11.36min. today....drum roll please..........lol


6.04mins!!!!





i couldn't be more proud not to mention i even had a 2 incline this time!

[musculArgirl2]

6 minute mile is pretty fast!! when you lose more weight i bet you will be even faster. Great job.

[Boss Man]

I cannot believe you've dropped 5.32 minutes per mile in the space of 5-6 months Christina. I don't know what is a standard level of improvement for most people, but I have to tell you I think you are a really, really amazing person..

I am sending you a BIG HUG, because throughout this year, you have shown an even greater side to you in terms of capability and achievement. You've had a few issues regarding moving, that have temporarily halted progress to some extent, but you've had the presence and strength of mind, to get back into it and be strong and proactive.

I want you to know that I AM VERY, VERY PROUD OF YOU and I couldn't be any prouder of you than I am right now. I did the interview with you to highlight how you have changed, how far you have come and how you have grown as a person. I think you are now not only fitter, stronger and wiser, but more beautiful for it as well, especially on the inside where it counts the most.

You never fail to touch me, because you have an infectious personality and a smile that could rival the sun and I have always wanted you to be the best person, or as close to it, as you are capable of being physically and slowly but surely you are getting there.

You will continue to progress with upmost respect and unconditional strength, support, empathy and understanding and I want you to take as much strength as you need, whenever you need it ,without asking and remember that when you push, people like me will be there in your head and heart pushing with you, if you want us to be .

You deserve to have a great Christmas Christina, because you've been through a tough past and had a few experiences, some of us could never know, but despite everything, you still believe in yourself and have the heart and courage, to continue telling people who you are and what it means.

You humble me constantly and you often make me smile inside.

I am so happy for you that you are able to tell people, about the amazing things you are achieving, I.E. the significant improvement in mile running speeds. You deserve to be so proud of yourself for what you are doing, you really do and you deserve to be smiling, because you're just an ordinary young Lady, doing pretty awesome things and this is not about why you ended up in the physical state you were in in the past, it's about recognising and celebrating how far you have come, since you took the brave decision to recognise you were not in a good way and acted on it whole-heartedly.

This year has been the best year since you did that. You have grown and improved more than I have ever known you to. There is no more weight loss coupled with gaining most or all of it back and loss of will to succeed, there is now a greater desirve and ability within you to succeed and I know you have the emotional, mental and physical tools, to carry this on into 2013 and to continue building a better you.

I want you to be fitter, stronger and more accomplished all round, as a physical specimen, because you deserve a long, active life, not an old, frail, incapable autumn of your life and I want you to be a shining beacon of hope, to others who are and will be like you were a few years ago.

I know you can achieve this, if you continue to believe in yourself and your own possibilities and you continue to let yourself grow and blossom and mature in an all round way.

Anything that can help improve you, towards being the person I said I think you can be, will always get vote every time and I hope what you are striving for right now, in terms of short-term goals, works out for you, because you ARE worth it.

GOOD LUCK and don't stop believing Christina. You've come too far to slip back to old ways now. You're better than that, so chin up, be strong, keep pushing and no worries.

You CAN do this and I am sure you WILL do this.

You are AMAZING misses.

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[rockchick_82808]

thank you so much as always for your support! every time i read it i push myself harder! speaking of which, today i did first warrior work out here is a pick of it. the highlighted portions are the ones i chose to do. i added dumbbells to rev/lunge and to russian twist.



i will be doing this mon and friday. Wednesday is just running. i want to set a routine that wont burn me out and something i can get accustomed to that i will be able to do once school starts up in January.

as i was doing workout when i looked down at leg, i noticed i have muscle growing on the front of calves! its insane! did this happen over nite? lol!

[Boss Man]

Peroneus Longus and Brevis are those ones at the front of the calf area.

Enjoy it and keep pushing yourself, because if you want it, there's more strength and condition where that came from. You're seeing just a small precursor to how awesome our body could look, if you continue to persevere and work hard at being a phsyically active human being .

I hope more of this kind of improvement will come, because you ARE worth it .

[rockchick_82808]

thank you boss man!
today at work like usual i take the stairs in the am in the parking garage, but on first brake, i took the inside stairs (6flights) walked up and down. then when leaving for the day, one of the girls who wants to do the warrior dash with me asked where i was going. i said i am taking the stairs. she goes, ill come with i need to start training too. so i ran down and she was shocked she then said, im not taking the ones up in the garage thats enough, that didnt stop me. when i got to the floor i wanted as i pass the elevator the door opens and she was shocked to see me. lmao! never judge a book by its cover! lol i just got home from the gym too. i stayed home all day yesterday since the snow was really bad, and decided to make up cardio today. tomorrow is suppose to be weight lift day but i have plans with the bf so i am pushing it back to Saturday morning. i have such a rush right now! gonna use it to clean the apartment. lol!

[Boss Man]

Good for you and the main thing is, that even though you're postponing the weights day, as long as it gets done, perhaps on a day when you'd scheduled an off day, then you're still getting in your weekly prescribed quota of exercise and you're not overdoing it, because you're just swapping a workout day with a rest day.

Presumably your bf is getting some good vibes off your progress. Does he indulge in any activity himself or is he an armchair supporter?

[rockchick_82808]

lol! he will not ever set foot in a gym. i have asked countless times even his friend has tried to convince him to go with him and me! not a budge. i think the only time i have ever got him to do any movement would be three years ago when he joined in playing basketball with a group of others i was with. wait...i take that back, he will go bike riding with me. he will do that. otherwise...nothing else. which is a huge bummer because i know thats why i lost a part of myself when it comes to being active because you should be able to do your favorite things with the one you love. thanks to the girls at work for wanting to do this dash with me, i really dont have any friends who would go out anymore and do stuff. there are a couple who would go on walks which is nice too, because during that time we can chit chat, but i want to do soo much more! i am limited when i have no one to do them with. theres no joy in it. if it werent for this race to look fwd to, i will admit going to the gym would come to a halt because its not the same when i dont have that class anymore. it was fun and took mind off the fact i was exercising and it was a blast doing it as a team. i really do wish he would be more active, i can't even get him to go bowling with me! i try so very hard to get involved with what he likes but most of the time it just leads to us watching tv. sure, i dont mind relaxing once in a while but there is more to life than tv and its really starting to get to me. if this really becomes new lifestyle, this could really take a toll on our relationship. i cant stay in front of a tv every day. i want to live the life i have been held back from for so long.

[fitoverforty]

because you should be able to do your favorite things with the one you love.

Yes, you should, but it's not always the way it happens. I've been married for 16 years to someone who, while I love him very much, will NOT work out with me, has absolutely NO interest in running or riding or any of the things I like. We have learned over the years to give each other space and understanding. He used to try to talk me out of whatever athletic goal or race I wanted to do, he would resent time at the gym, or time spent running, training, etc. - but over time he learned that I am a much happier person - a better version of myself - when I am free to pursue fitness passions. It's not always easy, and I wish all the time that he would get involved more and we could run together, go to the gym together, but I'm not going to let it stop me from doing it on own. Don't let it hold you back.

i am limited when i have no one to do them with. theres no joy in it. if it werent for this race to look fwd to, i will admit going to the gym would come to a halt because its not the same when i dont have that class anymore. it was fun and took mind off the fact i was exercising and it was a blast doing it as a team.

Without sounding like I'm getting to intense here, I just want you to know that the "joy in it" really has to come from inside of you - seeing the results you are getting, loving the feeling of the afterburn of a good workout - with or without anyone else being with you. I would hope your going to the gym won't come to a halt if you had no immediate goals or races ahead of you. I hope you will view your fitness as a gift to yourself, with or without any one else or any races or certain goals, because it really is a gift, that only you can give yourself.

there is more to life than tv and its really starting to get to me. if this really becomes new lifestyle, this could really take a toll on our relationship. i cant stay in front of a tv every day. i want to live the life i have been held back from for so long.

And you can! You deserve to continue to live the life you are making for yourself, it's all about finding that right balance, and I know you can do that. You can't change him, but you can continue to change yourself and work around your difference lifestyle choices. Hang in there, you are doing so great!
Oh btw..I have one of those calf muscles in the front too - isn't it the coolest thing!!

[Boss Man]

Christina, does your bf ever give reasons why he will not indulge in any form of activity with you?

One possible reason I can think of, is that he might feel it is being done for a purpose of yours that does not match him.

I mena if you're intent is intially to lose weight and he has no such problem, he might believe you have a certain type of emotional connection to it, that he couldn't get, because he would not have the same reason to want to do it as you have and if he couldn't find a reason to want it, like to have general overall improved wellness for years, thne he would see it as a pointless endeavour if he didn't understand why he was exercising in the first place.

He might even think that doing things with you and potentially a load of people physically similar to you, would make him look like the odd one out, or the fish out of water, or possibly as if he had no right to be there.

However this is not like wanting a slim person to go to something like weight watchers, to provide moral support, this is about someone being active for their own good as well as yours.

The two of you doing things together like that, could cultivate more of an emotional bond between you, but strain could still be created, if it felt like both of you were not getting enough space sometimes.

Maybe he feels him not doing any exercise, is not a case of doing things you want to do, for reasons not shared by him, but more a case of not having enough seperate "him" and "you" time.

A couple of key things to remember is, that it seems from past admissions, that he doesn't seem to resent your exercise time, like Lynne says her partner did some years ago and may possibly still do, but the other thing ot remember is that you are still worth it and his levels of acceptance shouldn't be used to devalue your own perception of your exercise needs, nor should the belief that without basing it around a group mentality, it has less significance.

Yes for some people, exercising alone can seem more emoptionally challenging or less rewarding, as opposed to group or team based pursuits, but in a group, the individual is doing it for themselvs, not you and in a team, the others are doing it to achieve a short-term goal and it's something if successful to add to a life CV, or as some say to tick off in a "life box", but your wellness is not a short-temr thing, it's for the rest of your life and beyond a group or team setting, where is the long-term motivation.

A sportsperson can potentially win multiple accolades, but what then beyond the confines of a sport, they can no longer participate at to a standard, comparable to that which allowed them to achieve accolades.

Some former sportspeople gain weight, or end up depressed, because it just stops happening. The deceased motivation and dedication to a cause happens and then there is nothing, no plan, no forward momentum and the process trying to leave behind something, that still holds a strong emotional attachment.

Some however persue wellness goals outside of sport or a team enviroment, because they acknowledge it as more than just a way to make money and achieve things.

In your case, short-term goals could provide success, but there is no monetary motivation, because you are not any sort of proffessional at a physical discipline, but the motivation comes from your future and what sort of person you want to be physiclaly in many years from now.

Team and group activities are often short-lived and they come and go, but allowing for a long future ahead of you, you won't.

I could end up old and with more issues than I would think I deserved and possibly something severe might happen and it would hurt to some extent that I tried to live right and paid for it anyway, but the worst hurt would be to suffer and never have tried to live well, knowing that I might have been able to delay or prevent some, or all of the issues I was faced with and knowing that barring miracle surguries or a truck load of prescribed drugs, to cure or manage ill(s), I would be stuck with any issues for the remainder of life.

It might not be right that you don't get as much support for your goals as you would wish for, especially from someone you are with and you are definitely not in a minority, as I've become aware of this type of behaviour before now, when people from differing walks of life, describe some or all friends or relatives, as having an apathetic, or "if I don't understand it, it must be wrong" type of mentality, to your physical wants.

Such individuals could suffer health problems in later life and they may wish they'd done something to try and prevent them and they would no doubt expect you to be there for them sometimes, to ease the emotional burden off them, even though they neglected to give proper respect and understanding in younger life, to important physical wants of yours.

The thing is though, you like every able person in this world, have a duty of care to yourself rorst and foremost. It is not the primary responsibility of medical proffessionals or the use of medicinal drugs or supplements, that is meant to substitute that responsibiltiy for people who have the time and enough physical ability to fufill that duty of care to themselves from birth.

Some knowledge of how to fulfill this responsibility is required, but when you have the educational tools to build a good physical self, a person with enough time and physical capability should go out into the world and make it happen.

You have the time and some understanding, to make the person you want to be happen. This does not mean you will be perfect at it, or never need to ask any questions about how you want to live and how to go about it ever again, but a big understanding is to realise that it comes down to you first and foremost to do what you can to be a better physical presence in this world.

If you base your attempts too much around group or team invovement and / or the need to have maximal levels of support from varying sources, then your attempts could fail, if you don't get enough of what you have deemed proper emotional sustenance and you have eluded to this in your previous post, by saying without team / group involvement, you would quite likely not go to the gym and train alone, because that emotional attachment to a team / group based activity, gives you what I have deemed, some pre-defined sustenance; you in effect believing that this setting is the kind of emotional nourishment needed to progress and achieve that perseverence on your own cannot provide.

Ultimately, you and your physical future are what is truly important in all of this. Having some support and / or a team / group based endeavour for fixed periods of time, can be a good thing, but if you cannot develop a flexible mindset, which allows you to focus on your goals, from a solitary perspective as well and to be able to build confidence and belief in yourself, when you must press on by yourself and forge some of the path on your own, then you're increasing your chances of failing.

I don't want someone I have a massive amount of respect and liking for, to be feeling as if certain things must happen to boost chances of success, because I know that even if all you had ever had, was your own levels of dedication and a smattering of input from people like me, you could still do it and I am rock solid certain in own mind you CAN do this Christina.

No matter what you wish was possible, I.E. having more support from close quarters, compared to what seems likely, you CAN make this happen for yourself and you CAN be everything I've ever said about you, because nobody has ever said you had to be someone that started at a base point and had to become capable of doing Iron man events, or setting olympic qualifying standards at something within 5 years, or become an abject failure, so neither you nor anyone else, has ever set a physical bar for you, that is perhaps excessive or potentially unfair and unrealistic.

I know that with time and as much realistic support as myself and others can give, you CAN become fitter, stronger and healthier and a beautiful example to others of how ot believe in yourself and never give up.

If you never did anything again that involved group or team settings, beyond what you currently planned to do, I know you could go it alone with your own mind, heart and whatever myself and others can do to push you.

I am convinced of this, because I believe you are so much more of an emotional and mental presence in your body than you might believe. Dig deep and keep learning about yourself, emotionally and mentally whilst you learn how much your body can change by doing it.

You don't EVER have to be the person who got unwanted comments from others again and you don't EVER have to be the person who felt so lost and confused about themselves they cried in the shower.

You're better than that sweetheart and you can be so much better than that, if you realise that with or without certain people and things to feed off, you DO have enough nutrition and nourishment from your own head and heart, to provide you with the fuel to progress physically and succeed .

Barring quirks of fate, nature or sheer misfortune, only YOU can stop yourself from achieving what you ARE capable of and I am absolutely certain you CAN achieve .

I'm sending you a BIG HUG, because I want you to know how much you should mean to yourself like you mean to others.

I want you to get up in the mornings and see the person are today and say goodbye to the person who was slightly less fit the day before and hello to the fitter you you've woken up to.

You've already come quite a distance and you deserve to be so proud of yourself and you deserve to smile. You've earned that and I'm so darn proud of you and you are unique in your own way and beautiful in your own way too. Build on that and don't stop trying to aim for your best and to stay there forever. You are physically capable and have been since you were born.

It's your right and duty to do it, so don't ever throw that away and potentially regret it in later life. I want you to be stronger, fitter and better in your later life, so hopefully you and bf can enjoy a long, good life together and you can have many reasons to be happy as an individual.

Chin up, keep believing and GOOD LUCK. You are a wonderful an beautifully human person Christina, so don't let yourself down, because you ARE worth so, so much more than that, whether it has to happen with team X or team you, because what is often missing from failure to physically succeed, is not the lack of people who could have helped you along the way, but how much understanding and belief you could find and use, to help yourself achieve physical goals .

[rockchick_82808]

thank you soo very much you two. you have really given me a new out look on this subject.

I just want you to know that the "joy in it" really has to come from inside of you - seeing the results you are getting, loving the feeling of the afterburn of a good workout - with or without anyone else being with you. I would hope your going to the gym won't come to a halt if you had no immediate goals or races ahead of you. I hope you will view your fitness as a gift to yourself, with or without any one else or any races or certain goals, because it really is a gift, that only you can give yourself.

I am convinced of this, because I believe you are so much more of an emotional and mental presence in your body than you might believe. Dig deep and keep learning about yourself, emotionally and mentally whilst you learn how much your body can change by doing it.

in relation to this, i saw a quote online that i had decided to write on the board in the kitchen so i see it everyday....

Are YOU your own biggest MOTIVATION yet?

[Boss Man]

Good idea. I compelte agree with that sort of thing. If something helps you to stay more motivated and focused on future progress, it can't be a bad thing, as long as it doesn't interfere with other aspects of your life.

So yes, great idea .

[rockchick_82808]

end of the year progress pics!

[Boss Man]

In those pictures, I can see another reason, apart from your beautiful personality, why your bf has been with you for so long and he should be applauded for seeing beyond your size and recognising the true you.

One day soon, your whole body will look as heart-warming and sublime, as your glowing, smiling face does .

I'm really proud of you misses and you deserve to be proud of yourself too and YES, you DO look truly beautiful.

WELL DONE .

You ROCK!!

[rockchick_82808]

so it's the end of the year lets do a recap of what was learned.

one, for those of you how are a victim of the loose weight quick fad from media and what our society has lead us to believe....stop listening to them! when i was in weight loss class i was taught that this is a life style change not a diet. all you do on a diet is loose weight quick for a trip but then gain it back because you didnt learn what to do after the diet is over. what do you do, go back to your old ways. now i am not going to lie and say i don't have days since this once in a blue moon but i dont feel deprived anymore.

yes, we want to loose weight quick but you don't gain any long term benefits from this. you want a long lasting healthy life, not a great feeling only for a weekend. yes it takes time, but isn't your life worth your time? yes, fast results maybe what keep you going, but don't you notice suttle differences along the way? like waking up refreshed in the morning and not sluggish? have more energy in the day, notice you started cutting back on the junk food. think back to where you started and where you are now....do you see the great impact you made now? i bet you do.

for me, i learned the above and self LOVE! knowing i am the one who has to make this change, a pill, a shake, a surgery wont change your state of mind. it all starts with how you feel about your self. if you don't work on your mentality along the way as well, its going to be hard to continue this fight. weight can not be the soul reason for the continued drive, it has to be so much more. the goal to love yourself completely!

there is a lot to learn and change and no, it cant happen over nite, it will be way to much of a shock to the system. just like those who need to quit smoking and go on a patch system. you need to do the same with your food habits. slowly work in organics to the food you eat on a regular basis, like milk, eggs. stay away from refined sugar, go whole grain. sugar is an addiction which turns into fat! the hole fat free labeling is a lie! all the chemical additives are now the fat causer. your body doesn't know how to break down these foods.

you don't need a class to learn this, do your own research, read books, articles, watch documentaries. trust me when i say, you will feel better when you wake up in the morning in a month once these changes take affect. a couple i would recommend watching are food inc, and hungry for change.

you will have a lot of work ahead of yourself to change your self but keep in mind its for the better. if you eat fast food everyday start cutting down to 6 days a week then 5 then none!!!

if you have your bad days talk to some one or post on here, i can't tell you how many times these people have been here for me and when i do, drive and outlook comes back!!!

some great things i did this year was not only weight loss but taught self discipline. even though you are tired and sore, do something even if its just a walk around the block, i can guarantee that once you finish, you will be happier with the feeling you pushed yourself then the regret at the end of the day that you didn't!

also, trying new things i was too afraid and told myself i am too fat i cant do this, or worried about what others will think of me when i try. well i went to they gym anyways, i went on a high ropes course 30ft in the air, i ran a 5k! instead of worrying about the negativity these people have, show them otherwise and laugh in their face, why let them have the satisfaction when you can!

make small goals along the way, each month. for example, i will wash dishes everyday instead of once a week and letting them build up. your surroundings and everyday tasks play just as much a roll in how you feel than you may realize. how do you feel when walk into a dirty house after a long day of work vs a clean one? i bet the clean one makes you feel refreshed and feel like you have time for your workout doesn't it?

loosing weight is just the side product to the real change you will make in yourself.

now what do i have planned for 2013? New years resolution....don't have one, but what I do have, are more GOALS to meet, more challenges to give myself, to continue to prove to myself how strong of a person I am, to continue to live life and go on adventures I have been too afraid to allow myself to do because of self doubt. I will continue to improve mylifestyle reguardless this year's end, life still goes on and a new year doesn't change that.