Jocelyn's 1/2 Marathon Journal

[Fygle]

Glad to see your upbeat self is back!

[fitoverforty]

And I didn't do too bad, I averaged 9:33 for the 1.6 miles......I am excited that I got back into it, I feel really good right now I hope the feeling doesn't wear off too fast

Ride that wave girl! I'm so glad you had a good run! You did great.

[EdgarHF]

Great to hear you are back running again. Any pace under 10 min sounds like blazing speed to a turtle like me.

[feelin-great]

Ughhhhh, this heat is ridiculous!!!! Can't wait for the storm to come blow it away.... No run tonight, I can barely walk through the humidity, I practically bouce off of it Instead of running I did Banish Fat Boost Metabolism DVD - thank goodness for central air I'm sure going to feel it tomorrow, it feels like forever since I have done DVDs.

Tomorrow should be a bit more bearable outside so as long as it isn't raining I will attempt three mile run

[Boss Man]

Can't you buy one of those hats with the little fan under that peak, that blows air in your face. I think you can still buy those somewhere can't you. Assuming that is that I haven't just remembered a product that never existed.

That would really feel sucky if I have.

[feelin-great]

Keep in mind I just recently became comfortable running in public - add that hat and I may not be so comfortable Plus I would probably run into somebody if the fan is in way

[Nokie173]

Im happy to hear you're doing better and getting your routine back... Girl.. I would sport a HOT pink hat as long as I get to run (or back to the routine)!!

[feelin-great]

Hey Nokie, welcome back, haven't seen you around in awhile

I am really starting to get frustrated that I can't get to this site at work any longer!!!! days just drag on...

Anyway, I keep thinking of everyone on here and that helps to motivate me after work. Tonight I got out and ran 3 miles - ok, I can't really say I actually ran all of it. Wow, it was a struggle But I finished even though I wanted to quit sooooo bad. I guess taking 2.5 weeks off of exercise and diet didn't do me any good I looked back on what I have eaten over the last couple weeks and it really wasn't good... so I guess I can't complain about struggling with the run, I brought it on myself. I also think the knee brace plays a large part. It almost forces me to run differently. I think next time I run I am going to try it without the brace just to see if that makes it easier for me. It ccould be all in head I am sure most of it is just because I slacked off for so long. Unfortunately I HATED running tonight, I lost love for it. But I am determined to get it back

Tomorrow night will be an off night, I have plans so I will not be working out. But Friday night I am going to shoot for the 3 miles again, and I plan to run the entire thing this time... that's the plan anyway.

[EdgarHF]

There is nothing you can do about the last 2.5 weeks, just as there is nothing I can do about 35 years of bad lifestyle choices. The thing that counts is that you ran today and you are going to run in the future. Be proud of the fact that you got back on the horse. Just as you say you will get back that love of running. We are going to go though tough spots from time to time it looks like you are going to make it through this one.

[Fygle]

Indeed, look at the bigger picture. Draw a line from when you started til now, it's going up right?

[Boss Man]

Change the future, because the past always remains the same.

[fitoverforty]

I love that Bossman! I need to write that down....

I have plans so I will not be working out

hmmmm...still seeing the football player?

But Friday night I am going to shoot for the 3 miles again, and I plan to run the entire thing this time... that's the plan anyway.

Sounds like a good plan.

[Nokie173]

Change the future, because the past always remains the same.

Wow... I like that!!!

[fitoverforty]

Knock knock! Hellooooooo!!!! miss you! how is everything?

[feelin-great]

Hey Lynne, I am still here I have been keeping up with everyone's journals but I have just been reading, not posting. I am spiraling downhill really, really fast and it has really scared me It has been a real struggle just to get out of bed each morning to go to work - I actually called in sick on Friday and stayed in bed all day I have eaten nothing but junk since. I know what caused it but I don't know how to get out of it this time (I ran into somebody Thursday night when I went out that I haven't seen in 10 years - he is not a good person) . Seeing him brought back some terrifying events in the past - I was already struggling to get out of depression and this just sent me downhill really, really fast. After I saw him that night I drank so much I don't remember the night, which is not like me at all. I never thought I would be faced with him again, but I was wrong. I don't have anybody to talk to about this because I never told anybody about it when it happened and now it has been so long I don't know how to bring it up.

So today I decided to fake it until I make it - I am just going to fake being happy until I am there again I really don't know what else to do. But I haven't left, I am stilling hanging around here, so I am definitely not giving up!!!