I understand I have to eat clean all the time to see results, but...what will happen one day (which happened before) where I suddenly say to hell with eating clean and started eating sooo much junk. I think it's better for me personally to eat clean mostly, and have some crap food and maybe lose weight in a slower process. I completely understand I sometimes contradict myself and head is all over the place. but I know one thing, I do not want to restrict myself to the point I jump at junk food every time I have the chance.
For example, yesterday, family went out for lunch, and I said, NO. stayed home and ate healthy. This weekend, they ordered from hardees, I said No. sister asked me if I want a slice of Pizza a few days ago, I said no.
Imagine...few months ago, I would've said yes to all, and to more. I think I am doing really good, maybe not always sticking and often eating crap on daily basis, true, but "no's" are much more than "yes's" to bad food. I think that counts a lot.
Skully's Journal (Diet/workout)
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I completely understand. Lol about the doughnuts. They're so tiny and I only have 4 pieces a week. It's a bad habit of mine...but It's not the source of fat, I know that much, because i used to eat these everyday, 4 pieces a day, making them 20, as opposed to 4 only..I was rather thin at the time. I know what screwed me the most in gaining weight and not being able to maintain a certain weight for a period of time: 1) the meds I was on, 2) laziness 3) lack of exercise completely.
Now...I'm off meds, I'm not lazy, and I exercise a helluva a lot more than I did just a while back. only issue is really gaining muscle, body doesn't build muscle easily...yes, guilty here, I complain a lot about the fat in body, but it's coming off...slowly. I just have to accept that. I am a lot more confident with body and the clothes I wear than I was feeling 6 months ago. I literally hated myself and how I allowed myself to get to a point I don't recognize myself in body. Now I do. Now I see me again.
Now...I'm off meds, I'm not lazy, and I exercise a helluva a lot more than I did just a while back. only issue is really gaining muscle, body doesn't build muscle easily...yes, guilty here, I complain a lot about the fat in body, but it's coming off...slowly. I just have to accept that. I am a lot more confident with body and the clothes I wear than I was feeling 6 months ago. I literally hated myself and how I allowed myself to get to a point I don't recognize myself in body. Now I do. Now I see me again.
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You know somthing? I just looked at myself in the mirror, and what I think? I love body! It actually looks HOT now. And boy aren't these muscles in back showing more! I just love back. I have a sexy looking back, with nice muscle tone, and has very little fat. and I LOVE IT.
Even biceps are looking a tad bigger. When arms are relaxed, I have a bigger pump. Not a huge lovely one...not yet....but it's getting there!
I dont wanna talk about food today...
All i know the new program is working for me. Doing weights on split days is really making a difference. I woke up feeling is big today, but I just looked at it now (at night), and I can see hip bones slowly showing more.
I think doing 4 splits and 1 session of 45 mins cardio a week with two rest days is perfect for me, and for the time being. I'll up the cardio after a few more months 3-4 when I have at least gained 2-3kgs of muscle.
weight is up and down. One minute I'm 51.5 and the other minute I'm 53.5...So the weight can go kiss its , because I like what I see and how I feel despite the fact I had quite more than usual bad meals.
I can see myself going places if I keep on doing what I'm doing now, even if some people don't agree to it or to way, but each to his own and what works for them, right? NOOOOOT that I'm dismissing you guys, your encouragements and advice...I listen to them and take 'em.......I love being here.
Even biceps are looking a tad bigger. When arms are relaxed, I have a bigger pump. Not a huge lovely one...not yet....but it's getting there!
I dont wanna talk about food today...
All i know the new program is working for me. Doing weights on split days is really making a difference. I woke up feeling is big today, but I just looked at it now (at night), and I can see hip bones slowly showing more.
I think doing 4 splits and 1 session of 45 mins cardio a week with two rest days is perfect for me, and for the time being. I'll up the cardio after a few more months 3-4 when I have at least gained 2-3kgs of muscle.
weight is up and down. One minute I'm 51.5 and the other minute I'm 53.5...So the weight can go kiss its , because I like what I see and how I feel despite the fact I had quite more than usual bad meals.
I can see myself going places if I keep on doing what I'm doing now, even if some people don't agree to it or to way, but each to his own and what works for them, right? NOOOOOT that I'm dismissing you guys, your encouragements and advice...I listen to them and take 'em.......I love being here.
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I'm glad that finally you've realised these things about yourself. Things like this can be a big precursor to progress, that can also be a big stumbling block if you can't realise them.
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Thanks A LOT for the support guys!!
Agh...unfortunately back seems to be still injured from the weight incident...I still feel the pain in middle back spine bone. I don't know what to do. I am staying away from any exercise that's uncomfy...or I cannot do...but tomorrow is legs day, and I have some deadlifts to do, and I know they work the lower back and pain is really closer to the lower back...I don't know if I should deadlift with 30kgs-35kgs or not..esp im doing a 10 x 3....
The pain is felt more often after I have been sitting, either for a while or an hour....I haven't taken any meds, but have put those gel thingies for muscle pain...but I am not sure it's "muscle pain"...and going to the doc is practically not an option. Lets say parents wouldn't see it a reason to spend money as money is a big issue in our home, which really sucks
..which brings me to summer plans, which is to work for 3 months right after university until before Ramadan...and it's going to be a true crucial time for me.
I would if I could negotiate working hours, but I don't think that's going to be possible...so I might end up working from 9-6..and I CANNOT handle it. Not that only hurts from sitting...I often find it hard to keep track of food, exercise....etc.
I have this amazing fantasy about work and all that comes with it, but I have feeling it will all be crushed.
a) I could use less time
b) I could use pretty decent salary for someone with experience.
Bleh........I got a call/interview back. I am not sure I want to settle just yet, and keep looking...because I dont know what are the benefits of the job just yet...
Ah...Work and UNI are two topics thats are constantly wearing me out.
Agh...unfortunately back seems to be still injured from the weight incident...I still feel the pain in middle back spine bone. I don't know what to do. I am staying away from any exercise that's uncomfy...or I cannot do...but tomorrow is legs day, and I have some deadlifts to do, and I know they work the lower back and pain is really closer to the lower back...I don't know if I should deadlift with 30kgs-35kgs or not..esp im doing a 10 x 3....
The pain is felt more often after I have been sitting, either for a while or an hour....I haven't taken any meds, but have put those gel thingies for muscle pain...but I am not sure it's "muscle pain"...and going to the doc is practically not an option. Lets say parents wouldn't see it a reason to spend money as money is a big issue in our home, which really sucks
..which brings me to summer plans, which is to work for 3 months right after university until before Ramadan...and it's going to be a true crucial time for me. I would if I could negotiate working hours, but I don't think that's going to be possible...so I might end up working from 9-6..and I CANNOT handle it. Not that only hurts from sitting...I often find it hard to keep track of food, exercise....etc.
I have this amazing fantasy about work and all that comes with it, but I have feeling it will all be crushed.
a) I could use less time
b) I could use pretty decent salary for someone with experience.
Bleh........I got a call/interview back. I am not sure I want to settle just yet, and keep looking...because I dont know what are the benefits of the job just yet...
Ah...Work and UNI are two topics thats are constantly wearing me out.
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Take the inteview.
A: They'll tell you what the job entails if you ask them.
B: Most people will not hire on the spot anyway, they'll give you a call back or a letter. If you get cold feet, politely say you've changed your mind or had a change in circumstances and can't, sorry for the inconvenience.
The problem in your Back could be muscular or Spinal. May be muscular more by the sounds of it. If it is, try doing about 3-4 Deadlifts weight free. If you can't even do that, avoid them. If so, do some with a weight free Bar, then touchwood if you don't feel it, keep increasing a little bit.
If you feel it at a certain weight level, or the sensations start to materialise, cut back a bit, then attempt the slightly higher weight next time. If you then find the slightly higher weight is tolerable, it's probably likely it is a muscular thing that is getting better.
If it's a muscular thing, thne not training it at all, when you could at least lift with maybe 20-30% of the usual weight, will just increase atrophy. lifting to some extent will not prevent it, but will stem the problem. Allowing the regrowth time of the muscle when 100% again, to be much quicker.
Bearing in mind, the "fascia" around the muscle, doesn't really atrophy to any extent if at all, so the resistance it adds to muscles in primary growth, is not there during regrowth, speeding up the regain of atrophied tissue condition.
A: They'll tell you what the job entails if you ask them.
B: Most people will not hire on the spot anyway, they'll give you a call back or a letter. If you get cold feet, politely say you've changed your mind or had a change in circumstances and can't, sorry for the inconvenience.
The problem in your Back could be muscular or Spinal. May be muscular more by the sounds of it. If it is, try doing about 3-4 Deadlifts weight free. If you can't even do that, avoid them. If so, do some with a weight free Bar, then touchwood if you don't feel it, keep increasing a little bit.
If you feel it at a certain weight level, or the sensations start to materialise, cut back a bit, then attempt the slightly higher weight next time. If you then find the slightly higher weight is tolerable, it's probably likely it is a muscular thing that is getting better.
If it's a muscular thing, thne not training it at all, when you could at least lift with maybe 20-30% of the usual weight, will just increase atrophy. lifting to some extent will not prevent it, but will stem the problem. Allowing the regrowth time of the muscle when 100% again, to be much quicker.
Bearing in mind, the "fascia" around the muscle, doesn't really atrophy to any extent if at all, so the resistance it adds to muscles in primary growth, is not there during regrowth, speeding up the regain of atrophied tissue condition.
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Boss Man, you're a very wordy man with an amazing vocab that the average person may not understand, lol....can you dumb it a bit down for me?If it's a muscular thing, thne not training it at all, when you could at least lift with maybe 20-30% of the usual weight, will just increase atrophy. lifting to some extent will not prevent it, but will stem the problem. Allowing the regrowth time of the muscle when 100% again, to be much quicker.
Bearing in mind, the "fascia" around the muscle, doesn't really atrophy to any extent if at all, so the resistance it adds to muscles in primary growth, is not there during regrowth, speeding up the regain of atrophied tissue condition.
okay so I did do the deadlifts. I did two types; Romanian I believe, and Straight Leg...
In the Romanian, I felt very little to no pain most of the time with the 30kgs.
As for the straight leg, I did, because back has to be in a straight horizontal line, as opposed to Romanian I actually sort of "squat".
Everything else was ok; step ups, lunges, calves raises....
but for the abs....I cant do thing like lying leg raises or anything that involves abs and "legs" and a lot of back like planks....etc.
On an another note..after the weight I went to take brother out, and boy didn't I get a crazy amount of cardio. I had to hike, run, duck, throw balls...a lot of stuff. In those kiddy big play thing...where they have gun balls ( i have no idea what it's called). But really doing that for almost an hour is a lot more harder than doing a HIIT! LOL. I even had to slide! So funny. I've done that before with him a couple of times....but gee the ducking part in small places really started to have a number on back...and bro being bro...he would say "now im sad and upset..., you have to do what I tell you!" LOL.
Food was okay, only problem I was way hunger by 7:45 (almost two hours after the gym) but bro wouldn't wanna get out, so I ate 2 hours and a half later....I had charely's brown bread, grilled chicken, olives, lettuce, SO VERY little cheese, and little mayo..I still felt hunger after that.......so I ended up eating 5 mini cinnabons. I am not sure how bad these are =S
At least I didn't eat hardees like the rest of family did. IN fact, they made me buy it for them. so yeah compare: chicken fillet/fries/pepsi vs. cinnamon ....I would still think the cinnamon rolls are much better. I dont know...correct me if im wrong?
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I actually had a meal before that a 6 inch sandwich of brown bread with grilled chicken from a healthier place, but i still was hungry afterwards....so i had the cinnamon...bout don't hardees...etc have a lot more fat in general than things like cinnabons?
I wouldn't have been able to eat another full sandwich though.
I wouldn't have been able to eat another full sandwich though.
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I don't often eat beef outside or from anywhere. Mostly home-cooked. I know that cheddar cheese has a lot of calories/fat in it. Even in fast food restaurants, there are ways to actually eat healthy food, the only issue is making yourself liking it as much as that fillet chicken for example....
As for the donughts. the only ones I eat are those mini ones, and I only have 4 pieces a week, which in total about 200 calories, 80 from fat, 28g of carbs...and keep in mind I only have 2 pieces on Mon and Wed...I know you're against it and stuff, but I am not buying a box of munchkins..In the summer I went on a doughnut craze...and ate it like everyday with some iced drink...and I saw myself packing in the fat. I personally don't think 4 pieces a week is THAT harmful. In the long run, sure they might add up, but these weren't issue.
You know I never realize if I craze sweets, salty stuff, or carbs....For me...I like what I eat for what the thing is and not for what it is, and that's part of problem....
As for the donughts. the only ones I eat are those mini ones, and I only have 4 pieces a week, which in total about 200 calories, 80 from fat, 28g of carbs...and keep in mind I only have 2 pieces on Mon and Wed...I know you're against it and stuff, but I am not buying a box of munchkins..In the summer I went on a doughnut craze...and ate it like everyday with some iced drink...and I saw myself packing in the fat. I personally don't think 4 pieces a week is THAT harmful. In the long run, sure they might add up, but these weren't issue.
You know I never realize if I craze sweets, salty stuff, or carbs....For me...I like what I eat for what the thing is and not for what it is, and that's part of problem....
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Those kind of things can sometimes be misleading though. Can't obviously see what you looked at, but hypothetically, one of those might have 30g unsaturates, 6g Saturates. The other could be 10g Saturates. 36g might still be a bit high, but if 5/6 of that or more was unsaturates, then there's no way it could have more saturates, if the other indeed was 10g pure saturates.amatlack wrote:That sandwich I mentioned only had 10 g fat. All their other sandwiches, including the chicken ones, were 36g fat or more.
Sometimes the devil is in the detail as they say.
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I feel completely depressed. I couldn't even go through workout today from it. I'm having a couple of real bad days I even considered crashing with another car yesterday (an re-occurring thought, btw.)
There are so many things depressing me right now. I'll just list them
- An asshole professor of mine is set out to give the lowest grade no matter what I do. He simply hates me, and complaining will do no good. I have sent him an e-mail that won't make things any better. I only have 3 days to decide whether to drop or not.
- If I drop...5 course late, meaning more studying, more crap to do next semester...and I cannot handle 5...I just can not.
- If I don't I either get a F,D,C- (as maximum) because since last semester he kept saying "I'd love to give you a C-. Ma'am" Shove it up your .
- Eventually, GPA suffers from this course ALONE. If I had a chance to get a 3.25 - 3.4 that's down the DRAIN. Toilet. Flushed.
- I'm sick of being the loner and left out one. I do not fit in anywhere. Not at home. Not at university. Not even at the new gym I've been going there for 4 months and I have no "colleagues or peers" to talk to. No one likes me. I'm a freak. I get it, people.
- food is not good. Yest I came home to eat a healthy meal, only to find out that the chicken is so hard I couldn't even chew it. I said f*ck it and drove to MacDonalds.
- I;m just tired of all the pressures, and I hate that effing asshole professor of mine that I truly, with NO regret whatsoever, wish him dead, and hope to god he does die. Yes, I'm HATEFUL that way.
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It seems body is still sore from Friday's leg workouts, and today (Monday) is leg workouts. Is it okay to work on sore muscles? The soreness became less, but I can still feel the pinch of it.
The only thing that is keeping me sane is that yesterday I got a call from a reputable newspaper and they offered me somewhat of a job. Not 100%, but they did say they have a training program with salary, benefits...etc of 1-2 years full-time..SADLY I didn't GRADUATE yet. So they offered that perhaps I could freelance for them (still waiting for that call....)
This paper pays really GOOD unlike average journalism jobs payments. Only downside, it's in another city. so it's a lot of car commuting (2hrs to go and 2 to come back)....and I am worried that if I DO get the job, parents wouldn't allow me to move, which is not a norm here at all.
In short, LIFE SUCKS!
There are so many things depressing me right now. I'll just list them
- An asshole professor of mine is set out to give the lowest grade no matter what I do. He simply hates me, and complaining will do no good. I have sent him an e-mail that won't make things any better. I only have 3 days to decide whether to drop or not.
- If I drop...5 course late, meaning more studying, more crap to do next semester...and I cannot handle 5...I just can not.
- If I don't I either get a F,D,C- (as maximum) because since last semester he kept saying "I'd love to give you a C-. Ma'am" Shove it up your .
- Eventually, GPA suffers from this course ALONE. If I had a chance to get a 3.25 - 3.4 that's down the DRAIN. Toilet. Flushed.
- I'm sick of being the loner and left out one. I do not fit in anywhere. Not at home. Not at university. Not even at the new gym I've been going there for 4 months and I have no "colleagues or peers" to talk to. No one likes me. I'm a freak. I get it, people.
- food is not good. Yest I came home to eat a healthy meal, only to find out that the chicken is so hard I couldn't even chew it. I said f*ck it and drove to MacDonalds.
- I;m just tired of all the pressures, and I hate that effing asshole professor of mine that I truly, with NO regret whatsoever, wish him dead, and hope to god he does die. Yes, I'm HATEFUL that way.
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It seems body is still sore from Friday's leg workouts, and today (Monday) is leg workouts. Is it okay to work on sore muscles? The soreness became less, but I can still feel the pinch of it.
The only thing that is keeping me sane is that yesterday I got a call from a reputable newspaper and they offered me somewhat of a job. Not 100%, but they did say they have a training program with salary, benefits...etc of 1-2 years full-time..SADLY I didn't GRADUATE yet. So they offered that perhaps I could freelance for them (still waiting for that call....)
This paper pays really GOOD unlike average journalism jobs payments. Only downside, it's in another city. so it's a lot of car commuting (2hrs to go and 2 to come back)....and I am worried that if I DO get the job, parents wouldn't allow me to move, which is not a norm here at all.
In short, LIFE SUCKS!
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Believe me Skully I know where your coming from. hard times makes you a stronger, better person and much wiser. Stay positive!!
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I agree... although I don't post much in here... I do read it...brentyboy wrote:you fit in here and we like youskully wrote:I'm sick of being the loner and left out one. I do not fit in anywhere. Not at home. Not at university. Not even at the new gym I've been going there for 4 months and I have no "colleagues or peers" to talk to. No one likes me. I'm a freak. I get it, people.
Darn it.. you are doing a GREAT job! Do it for yourself and health!
Be positive... you are beautiful and seems like you're headed for the right direction with your fitness.
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Not really
A lot of worries and a lot of unhappiness and...a lot of work to do, and no idea if I'll ever do good in anything I'm given.
=S I don't know what to say anymore really.
I am making progress with weights for sure. Yest. I was able to lift 8kgs in one arm for a couple of reps, which means I'm getting stronger. I can actually feel hamstrings muscles..but other than that... food is not the best, but for some reason I'm looking smaller and feeling lighter..
A lot of worries and a lot of unhappiness and...a lot of work to do, and no idea if I'll ever do good in anything I'm given.
=S I don't know what to say anymore really.
I am making progress with weights for sure. Yest. I was able to lift 8kgs in one arm for a couple of reps, which means I'm getting stronger. I can actually feel hamstrings muscles..but other than that... food is not the best, but for some reason I'm looking smaller and feeling lighter..
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Thank you! To you too. Although april is not good at all.
I was taken to theh hospital today from extreme abdominal pain in an ambulance. IT was really bad...so no exercise for 3 days and didn't eat anything properly since I woke up. It's almost 9 p.m....and I'm going to finally eat something. The situation is pretty exhausting. A lot is going on. I'll be updating later again.....
I was taken to theh hospital today from extreme abdominal pain in an ambulance. IT was really bad...so no exercise for 3 days and didn't eat anything properly since I woke up. It's almost 9 p.m....and I'm going to finally eat something. The situation is pretty exhausting. A lot is going on. I'll be updating later again.....