Fat Around Button Area?

[Boss Man]

Sheesh, just walk by in the next day or so, take a glance and if she's in and it's not busy, just walk in, buy something as an excuse to be by the counter, than just say what needs saying .

If you keep giving it the old what if she, what if it's busy, what if I look like a tool kind of vibes, you'll talk yourself out of it and you won't have the balls to do it, because they'll have retracted back into your crotch with worry.

Stop overcomplicating it with psychobabble okay, she's just a normal human being, not an alien .

[MissJenaKay]

Martin:: Sweety, if it means anything to you, you'll be able to do it . I agree with Boss, quite frankly. You're an attractive young man, you seem sweet, and if you go in the store but never buy anything, then she knows it's either that you like her or that you're a creep. But you'll prove to her you're not a creep.

Boss :: Harsh. Lol. But very true.

[Martin-Boy2]

Lol, i know i may be overclipicating things, but id like to have a bit of an idea of what to say rather than thinking of it on the spot and being umm ueghh ahh ooh

I think im capable of asking her how she is/hows things how you doing sort of thing, but after that.. "can i have your number", seems jumping the gun a bit, not sure if i should be in steps, then go in the next few days and say something different, thoughts?

I was going to go in this morning, but think i'll leave it til tomorow, as i poped in the last night, if she is in and saw me last night going in again and not buying anything, that isn't going to look good lol.

Oh and it's a rental store, so i guess renting is the same thing

[MissJenaKay]

Show little confidence, women actually like that. Crazy, eh? Ask for her number, tell her that you like her and would like to get to know her better and ask her if you two can meet up sometime when she's not working. The worst she can do is say no. You're torturing yourself by dragging it out. Lol

[Martin-Boy2]

Lol your right.

By the way having a bit of a predicament.

I can't sleep too well, i mean i have a bad sleeping pattern at the moment. Seems to be taking me around 2 hrs to nod off and i find myself getting to sleep by sleeping up the wrong side of the bed, i read and all before hand, but i guess the right way to say it is, i have trouble switching off.

Ugh, went down there this morning, pretty empty - ideal right, she's not there

Even behind the counter if there's another work mate next to her id feel self concious

[Martin-Boy2]

Today;
Deadlift 85kg 3x5
Bench Press 52.5kg 4x10
Barbell row 62.5kg 5x5 - Fairly easy, better than last time
Dumbbell OHP 22kg x2 2x5, 1x3 - Bit too heavy i think.

[Martin-Boy2]

Blew it, why lie to myself?

decided to go to the store as i had nothing better 2 do, i saw she was in the store which was good news, i eventually picked out a movie, one that i didn't even want to watch, but instead of looking like a creep going in there and getting nothing i decided to rent it out anyway.

I went to the counter and there were 2 people serving she was one of them, the other woman was serving these 2 teenage kids so i was left at the counter where she was serving. But i dunno, i just bottled it i guess, perfect opportunity (minus the people), and i just fucking failed lol. I dunno why im like this? I could normally talk to people no problem, but it just seems something is stopping me from speaking and making me look like a creep and that's not going to get me anywhere.

"Hello"
"Alright"
"Is it just the one film"
"Yeah just that one
"Ok then can i have your card"
Yeah
thx
"ok that's £
"Oh can i use this"
Yeah sure
Thanks thats bak tomorow

Tell a lie, there were some words of small talk, i asked if the film was any good and she said yeah it's really good, oh aint i a stud.

I was short changed and i have these voucher/tokens that i can get rentals with so i used that, but even doing that makes me look cheap. Why did i fucking blow it, why can't i speak, she probably aint interested anyway, making small talk with someone who can't even speak. Where the hell am i going to get in life if i can't even talk to her, let alone start a relationship, i think it's just not going to happen, looks like im giving up. Do i want to? no. But i can't even fucking speak to the girl, some serious problems i have here. If i can't speak to her normally, then i have no chance, no point cheating and drinking some alcohol then going, what's the point, just hiding patheticness underneath. UGH this shes probably better off with someone that can speak, im hardly in a good situation to start a relationship anyway, but if i have to stare at these walls anymore being angry with myself for not giving it a go i'll hate myself.

It's easy to speak and give it a go, ntohing to lose, all she could say is no. I know this! And that's why i don't see why i can't speak to her, there's no personality, there's nothing.

Adding her online is cheating, yet it's the only probable way. Even if she says oh who are you, im the idiot that bought the dvd. How you get account, oh well i stalked you and found your name tag. Ok thats nice.

Remember that girl i could of seen long ago? mates girl. We were all out once in the car and a few words were exchanged, then we talked/txted online for a ton of time, so much that i felt that whenever i see her in person things would be cool and it would be just looking talking to a mate.

But what if online and all didn't exist, and i didn't know her name to add her or she wasn't on the net, there would be no other way, so surely i can't cheat. Besides what if i get talking to her then she says how comes you added me, oh because i didn't have the bottle to talk.

Don't want to throw in the towel but i can't keep making myself look like a damn prick, all this time on hands and nothing to go for it.

Time to watch this film i didn't even want, great night x5


I know you guys don't like negativity, and believe me, i hate it myself, a lot of it is in this house but i avoid it and move myself away from it, but from situations like these, i just really hate myself.

On a side note really got to cut out the biscuits and crud from daily diet, but right now i really couldn't give a shit.

[Martin-Boy2]

Went back in to return the film, was going to say something about it, but to surprise it was busy, so just dropped it in. Doubt she's probably even interested.

[Boss Man]

Forget her, there's plenty more fish in the sea.

Obsessing about someone you might have potentially 1% compatability with if that, is not worth it. It's not like you have to have a girlfriend by teh age of 21, or you'll be disowned by your family and made homeless.

It's becoming a rod for your back, all this worrying about will she be there, will she won't she even like me, am I looking like a dufus or a creepo etc.

Focus on you, not her, because you need to be more consistent with your eating. You've still got medical matters to be assessed and attended to and right now you need to get some of your own stuff out of the way, before you start adding other stuff into your life.

[Martin-Boy2]

You're probably right Boss but i feel if i leave it and wait til other things are sorted then it'll be too late and someone else would of taken the chance. IM sure if i bumped into her outside the store, say over the park or so id be fine with speaking to her but it just feels like too much pressure at the moment, the other stuff would be adding her online but again i don't know if that's the right thing to do so i haven't been too hasty with that, what do you think?

I want to at least say ive tried, rather than give up and let someone else have her, she seems like a nice girl and the best i can do is try, but i just really don't know, after yesterday it really nocked me back, but it wasn't anything that she did but myself. I have to go there tomorrow anyway to take something back but i just dunno what to do about it, i just can't see myself chatting her up in the store, as much as i paint the picture in head.

Get the alcohol out .. lol

I feel i want to do this for myself, and at least try and make something.

[Martin-Boy2]

I can't help but feel im doing something wrong sitting about here, nothing going to jump out at me, but what can i do, keep walking down to the store like a creep when she probaly isn't working, dunno what to do for the best.



everythings going down hill at the moment and nothing to do with this girl but it is, i feel i need to get away and make a change and that is where she comes in

[Boss Man]

Simple answer then, either do it or don't.

You're tormenting yourself over her and it's not productive, so either go there and try to make contact or let it go.

You're human and there's nothing wrong with that, but you're also being too hard on yourself, by making this situation seem more monumental by the day.

[MissJenaKay]

Yeah, Martin, sweetie, you're getting a little crazy over the situation. I wish there was something I could do for you to help the situation, but I'm not there, I can't introduce the two of you, I can't force you to do anything. There's nothing I can do and there's nothing Boss can do. All I'm saying is to do what you want. You only live once.

Also, speaking of your dilemma, online is not cheating, honey. If it is, then I somehow managed to cheat way into a relationship several times, including two days ago. Haha. Lighten up, loosen up, live for yourself.

I wish you the best, darling.

[Martin-Boy2]

You see, as i have no idea when or what time she's working, if i head down there in the morning and she's not in, it's likely she'll be working later as it's a friday - weekend there busy times, but if i go down there twice in a day it just seems weird.

You see iwant to, and i know i can, i know what needs saying and all, but when it comes to the crunch, i bottle it, this is kinda strange for me, even things i haven't wanted to do in the past i have done regardless, but it seems ive met match


Probably does seem like im going a bit mad over what is a simple situation, and yeah id go along with that, but how would you feel, speaking to someone you don't know, asking for her number, with a load of people around you watching and listening in. If i knew her i wouldn't give a shit, but when you don't know and she can say anything, you run the risk of being embarrased.

Another thing, is it to soon to ask for her number? I mean, i haven't even spoke to her properly, if a stranger came up to you and asked for your number, would you give it to them? Or am i better off trying to have small talk with her a few times and then get her number, i could ask her how she is and if she likes her job and call it that, then next time say something else, then maybe ask for her number, if i jump in all guns blazing (if i evne have the balls to), then there's more chance of getting rejected?


If i can't come to terms with speaking to her, as pathetic as that is, should i add her online? I guess it's a back up, provided she accepts, but id like the first contact to be in person if i can.

Ah it i dunno, might just go down there and man the up

[Martin-Boy2]

Thought id update, went to the store to return something i WAS confident enough to speak, i knew what 2 say and i thought that it would be the ideal chance to have a conversation.

Unfortunately however, she wasn't in

But i felt confident enough and that i wouldn't have a problem talking, even whilst in the store which is good, it's just keeping that feeling when she's there. I might try the store later, i mean when ive been in there i think she works mostly in the evenings, feel bit like a stalker saying this but that's just what ive noticed.

So if i get the chance i'll try again later, but problem is, especially now the weekends here, the evenings are usually the peak times, if it's not too busy, i'll get a film out as an excuse to go to the counter but although nothing's happened yet, it's better to feel some confidence, just have to wait til later, i was thinking of adding her online, but not talking in the store i wouldn't know what to say and it might seem akward, back up plan, for now. lol