.I also never set out to directly attack any one individual in the medical proffession either. I won't apologise for caring, because when I replied, you meant something to me as a person, and I chose to respond to you, with what I thought was an honest and genuine response. For as long as you continue to come here, you will always mean something to me. You have become one of us and for what you could potentially add to this site and have done so already, I thank you
.I will say though that you are someone that definitely has some inner beauty and for showing us the confidence to express yourself, in a controlled manner and in an intellectual way, you should be very proud of yourself, including your admissions as well. I appreciate it can't be easy to mention some of the things you did do and I totally respect you for it
.I as a Moderator can vouch for all the replies given, when I say they came from heart and were said purely because the people concerned care, not to condem you in any way.
We could tell people to just eat 1,200 calories a day and do 10 hours a week on a Treadmill, but we don't do that, because we care enough to tell people what we feel is right and best for them, even if it's not necessarily what they want to hear.
We can give you all the support and encourage you need if you'll let us. We try to do what we think is in the persons best interests and personally I'm always proud to share this site with people like you and always will be.
I would suggest though with motivation, to think about how you will be in later life. If you haven't got the motivation now, when will you have it?
Whatever you decide to do, I wish you all the luck in the world doing it. You deserve to have a better quality of life. I'm sorry that we can't tell you exactly what you might wish to hear, but when what we could say, conflicts with what we feel is best, we won't say it, because we don't have to live with the resutls of "yeah whatever", style replies.
I personally respect you a lot for how you've conducted yourself over this and I think you do have a lot of positve things about you, like your attitude and personality and if you can express yourself with such confidence, I think you are capable of more than you perhaps credit yourself for.
I hope you will stay, but I cannot force, or push or coerse you into doing it, as it's not right to do that. You again have very best wishes no matter what. You CAN be proud of who you are and you CAN be proud of standing up for yourself and making those first few steps to a better, healthier you. I know it won't be easy for you, whatever route you take to better wellness, as it's not easy for anyone; nor can I say what effect other influences in your future might have on that, as I can only speak from the standpoint of what I know we as a community can do to help
.Take care and keep looking after that inner person . I think you are a great person with a lot of potential to grow, blossom and expand on what you are already
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