Staying Motivated

[Bonnie]

Strangely enough I take wellbutrin & have since 1998 & admittedly I also have changed all of lifestyle habits, I DO think how we think, what we do, what we believe in, has a HUGE impact on our mood & well being.BUT I also remember the attempted suicides & waking up in the hospital with charcoal as best friend, all because I could not drag myself out of a spiraling funk.One day I think I WILL be brave enough to see if I can function without the antidepressants, but I'll never feel bad for taking something that might of saved life, so I can now enjoy the fitness & everything I have.Easy to say " don't take them " If you ain't been there..

[Bonnie]

Though yes do not ask a GP to prescribe even private shrinks I'd not trust, mine works for the government mental health, that makes him more accountable.Best of luck with whatever you decide, you know yourself best

[Boss Man]

Easy to say " don't take them " If you ain't been there..

True, but I was saying that on the basis of her actions around here and general posting content / behaviour.

She's never struck me as someone that has a serious problem with it. I'm just going by what I read. Her manner, levels of interactivity etc etc, would indicate to me she is someone that "perhaps" does not require something like A D's.

Certainly it is not place and was not intention to do something, that looked like a mental assessment or diagnosis.

I appreciate your stance on this 100%, because you are in that situation and I have and always will respect you in every way. I just decided it might help her, to think more about a pretty momentous decision before taking it. If there are other things out there that may help, then it seems prudent to me to inform and suggest those, instead of accepting a situation where she starts taking things, that may not be in her best interests.

As always I respect your opinion and you immensely .

[Voluptuousme]

This trial is a two month trial. That's it. Every time I venture down the road of medicating issues I always without fail end up retreating from it. I DO NOT think that I need the drugs, I also had never considered alternatives like Saint Johns wart etc etc. I AM going to check those out. Initially I was going to do the drug trial for the money. Since I am jobless and broke. its only 50 dollars per visit but its better than nothing I guess. dad actually offered to pay me the 50 dollars per two weeks if I wouldn't go to the appointments but that's not reliable. I told him I would take him up on that.

Guaranteed, without a doubt in mind, depression is struck on by being overweight, BORING AS HELL environment, and alcohol use.

All things I can change. I desperately wish I had a job and didn't live in this stupid house. I hate this house. I can't do anything with it and it drives me crazy. One more year here and that's it!

I appreciate all the opinions out there on the subject and I take all of it straight to heart. It means a lot to me and definitely inspires thoughtfulness and that is huge for me. I am always open to different perspectives and you all definitely supply that.

So Thank you!

[Bonnie]

Nah allison it won't turn into that & thank you boss man, I will always respect you also I agree 100 % that environment & all other options should be considered first & it is good to see you recognize that is probably your issue at this time, because a true imbalanced person generally can't focus enough to be able to even know that, they just feel lost.I would not recommend those drug trials either, who knows what they could stick you on, allison was right about certain drugs, they DO make you trapped in your head & feel worse than before, so be careful. Take the money your dad offered, awesome solution.. friend here does advertisers survey's such as they gather to give opinions on radio, products etc( market research )..that pays 50 + dollars per session, maybe try & find something like that ?..Good luck

[Boss Man]

You could try mystery shopper type things, but it's not withouth it's problems.

Yes you get free goods, meals etc etc, because you're being used by company officials, to evaluate their customer service, shopping environment etc etc, but I've read about those and sometimes you might be having ot wander round stores for 90 minutes at a time.

How could you do that without arousing suspicion, being found out, (which disqualifies you from receiving any payment), or being suspected of trying to shoplift?

Plus what would happen if they wanted you to go somewhere like Pizza Hut and you didn't really want to? It might look funny when you ordered something like a side salad and a glass of water.

Plus you don't know how many times you'd be used for assignments.

You could make twice what an average weekly wage might be in 1 week, but if you only made that much 2 in every eight weeks, and 1/4 - 1/3 of that the rest of the time, you'd be making less than a full time person on a basic wage, so your earnings potential would be completely unknown.

Also you'd be required to sometimes go to locations, that are difficult and out of the question, impacting on income potential.

Could be a nice little earner depending on assignement types and ease of location and for some, at least the opportunity to earn approximately around 20% more than a basic 40 hour a week wage, for around 20% less actual hours, might even be a batter paying scenario than that.

[fit-fanatic-2025]

If your interested. http://www.marketforce.com" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false; and http://www.conferoinc.com" onclick="window.open(this.href);return false; are two good mystery shopping companies. I believe there are others too but i'm not familiar with them. I have a friend that does marketforce. They do a lot of fast food type restaurants. I don't know much about them or anything like that. Just giving you the info. And i'm also not sure if they are in your neck of the woods.

[Boss Man]

Of course it's prudent not to disclose any of the friends details, incase there's a greasy teenager on here that's blabs. Then she'll make next to nothing .

[fit-fanatic-2025]

Your right Boss. I changed it to be a little incognito.

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[Voluptuousme]

I started working and haven't had time for anything. Life has been dramatic and full of stress lately. I've been taking vitamins and drinking a lot of water, not much for exercise though, this last weekend I painted entire room, that was rough, thighs were screaming sore.

Anyway, Thats update, i'm tired, cranky and I have to be up again in 7 hours to go back to the grind. job is super boring. File Clerk, Redacting, and Filing. woohoo!!!!

[Boss Man]

Try to do the best you can. You owe yourself that at least .

Take care and best wishes.

[Voluptuousme]

You are so right. This weekend I have lots of plans to exercise. I'm eating a lot better and a lot less. Anything I can do to up metabolism and feel better throughout the day. I appreciate that you are here to offer support even when I have gone down hill a bit. Goal is still to lose 70lbs by July of 2011.

[Boss Man]

You know I will be proud of you for what you are doing you know. I know it is perhaps difficult sometimes to stick to something when most of your life has been practically the exact opposite.

Be proud of yourself too. You're NOT a bad person and you're NOT a failure, you just need to keep remembering what this is worth to you and your daughter. She needs someone to look up to physically, not just morally and emotionally.

I know you are probably doing your best for her and I admire and applaud you for being a good Mother, because I really think you probably are, but doing this for you, would make you even better, from the point of view of being a better rolemodel to her as well.

Your future is a key thing here too. You could have a long life and whilst good living doesn't always facilitate this, it increases the odds far more than doing nothing and being slovenly.

I know you ARE worth this, I really do and whan it gets tough, PM me and we'll talk things through, about personal things, worries or just problems, like we have before, but don't let yourself become a could'a should'a would'a person, becasue you deserve better than that and have more value than that as a person.

I am genuinely proud of you and I want this to work out for you, becasue you deserve a bright future and so does your daughter.

GOOD LUCK and please keep letting us know how things are going. The more you can tell us, the more we can support and help you and that's what we want to do for you, because we care and because you DO matter to us misses .

I'm sending you a BIG HUG to let you know what a great person you are and to reiterate how proud of you I still am.

You're not a quitter, failure or a loser, you're you and to me that's pretty amazing in it's own unique way. So keep smiling, keep sticking your thumb in air and keep remembering your own self worth and looking after the wonderful heart and the inner beauty you have.

You CAN do this, as long as you keep believing in yourself and making sure when it feels like one of those days, you find the strength to push through and do what needs doing, because that strength is there and you just need to know that and trust in yourself to find it and use it properly.

Chin up, hang in there, GODO LUCK and best wishes.

This is for you and your daughter and for the rest of your lives together, to build and maintain a solid Mother, Daughter bond. She deserves you, but you deserve to be a better person physically, but you MUST earn that and I know you CAN. You really, really CAN .